The silence of the room pressed down, only the faint ticking of the clock filling the air. You sat on the edge of the bed, the reports clutched in your hands. Jungkook leaned against the wall, arms crossed, eyes shadowed.
You tilted your head, studying him. âYou read them, didnât you?â
His jaw tightened. He didnât answer. He didnât need to. That silence was enough.
A bitter little chuckle slipped past your lips. âOf course you did.â You flipped a page, staring at the list of drugs that had once ruled your childhood. âThen you know whatâs written here, donât you?â
His gaze finally met yoursâhard, unreadable, but beneath it, something raw.
You held the papers tighter, voice low but shaking with suppressed anger. âThese arenât medicines for injuries, Jungkook. Theyâre memory suppressants. They didnât want me to heal. They wanted me to forget.â
Your throat burned as you let out a shaky breath. âMy mother dies in that accident, and instead of giving me answers, they gave meâthis.â You held up the file like a weapon. âYears of my life⌠erased.â
The weight of your words hung in the air. Jungkookâs hands slowly fell from his chest, curling into fists at his sides. He looked like he wanted to say something, to curse, to breakâbut instead, he just stared, his silence louder than any scream.
Jungkookâs voice finally broke the silence, low and rough.
âYou never said anything about the accident.â His eyes narrowed, searching your face. âWhy?â
You froze. The reports weighed heavy in your hands, the words blurring before your eyes. Your lips parted, but no sound came out.
Why?
Because you never wanted to. Because even the fragments you remembered clawed at your chest like broken glass. Because you had spent years burying it all, pretending the ache wasnât there. Because deep down⌠you were terrified of what you might uncover if you dug too deep.
But none of that came out.
Instead, you just stared at him, silence spilling between you like a confession in itself.
Jungkookâs jaw clenched. He pushed off the wall, his footsteps echoing as he crossed the room, closing the distance. His gaze was sharp, but his voice⌠softer now.
âYn,â he pressed, standing right before you, âwhy didnât you ever say a word?â
Your throat tightened. You couldnât look at him. Couldnât let him see the storm in your eyes. So you turned your face away, clutching the file until your knuckles went white, letting silence answer him again.
And it frustrated him more than anything.
Your silence dragged like chains between you.
Jungkookâs patience snapped. His hand shot out, grabbing the file from your grip and tossing it onto the table with a thud. âDamn it, Yn!â he growled, his voice low but seething. âStop shutting me out! Why didnât you ever say a word? You think I can just stand here and watch you destroy yourself with silence?â
His chest rose and fell harshly, anger radiating off him in waves. His dark eyes locked on yours, demanding, almost desperate.
You flinched at the force of his words but stayed still, lips pressed together. The truth was right there on the tip of your tongue, but your fear was louder.
Jungkookâs shoulders tensed, his fists clenching at his sides as though he was one second away from punching the wall again. âYouââ he began sharply, but then stopped. His jaw slackened, his anger folding into something else as he saw your trembling hands, the way you couldnât even lift your eyes to him.
His breath hitched, rough but quieter this time. â...Yn.â
The sharp edge in his voice dulled, replaced by something raw, something vulnerable. He ran a hand through his hair, stepping closer. His anger melted into concern, guilt heavy in his tone. âI didnât mean toââ He exhaled hard, searching your face. âI just⌠I donât understand why you carry it all alone. Why you let yourself bleed in silence when Iâm right here.â
Slowly, carefully, he lifted his hand to your cheek, his thumb brushing against your skin, forcing your gaze to his. His eyes softened, even as frustration lingered there.
âYou donât have to fight everything by yourself anymore.â
The air was thick with tension, your silence pressing down like a weight. Jungkookâs jaw flexed, his fists still tight at his sides. He looked ready to explode again, but then his gaze lingered on your trembling hands, on the way your chest rose and fell as though you were suffocating.
His anger cracked.
âYnâŚâ his voice was lower now, hoarse, almost pleading. He stepped closer, his hand finding your arm, gentle this time. His eyesâstill storm-darkâsearched yours with an ache that unsettled you.
âYou can tell me everything,â he murmured softly, the sharpness gone. âI wonât judge. I wonât question.â His thumb brushed your skin, his touch grounding. âI put my everything on the line to protect you⌠so how could I ever let you carry this alone?â
Your breath caught.
Jungkook leaned in, his forehead nearly touching yours, his tone deep and rough with sincerity. âDonât shut me out, Yn. Just⌠tell me everything. Donât carry it all by yourself anymore.â
The silence after his words was deafening, his raw sincerity wrapping around you like both comfort and chains. You could feel his heartbeat in the space between you, steady and unyielding, as if he was anchoring you even when you didnât ask.
Your throat burned as the words clawed their way out, your walls finally shattering under his persistence.
âWhen I was nine,â you began, your voice trembling but steady enough to slice through the silence, âI got into a car accident.â Your eyes dropped to the floor, unable to meet his. âI lost my mom that night⌠and I slipped into a coma.â
Jungkookâs hand tightened slightly on your arm, but he stayed quiet, urging you with his silence.
âI woke up after three months,â you continued, blinking rapidly as the memory unspooled. âBut my mind⌠was blank. Completely blank. I didnât remember what happened, I didnât remember how⌠it was just darkness. Like someone had stolen pieces of me I couldnât get back.â
Your breath shook, but you pushed on. âTaehyung⌠he was the only one who told me everything. He stayed by my side when I was⌠when I was at my worst. He told me what happened, heââ Your voice cracked, and you swallowed hard. âHeâs the only reason I didnât break completely.â
Finally, you lifted your gaze, your eyes shimmering with unshed tears. âBecause my father⌠he hated me for it. He looked at me like I was a curse, like I was the reason Mom was gone. He⌠blamed me.â
Jungkookâs chest rose sharply, his jaw clenching as though your words cut straight into him. But you werenât done.
âAnd the truth is⌠maybe he was right.â You gave a bitter chuckle, though your lips trembled. âFrom that accident onward, I wasnât a daughter, I wasnât a person. I was just⌠a tragic child. A reminder of what everyone lost. Nothing more.â
The silence that followed was suffocating, heavy with your confession.
Jungkookâs eyes darkened, his breath uneven, his fingers twitching as if he was fighting the urge to pull you into him right then and there.
Your voice grew sharper, angrier, the pain youâd buried for years boiling to the surface.
âHe was never there when I needed him the most.â Your hands balled into fists in your lap. âNot once. And then⌠then he married her.â
Jungkook tilted his head slightly, his brows furrowing as you almost spat the word.
âTaehyungâs mother,â you whispered, venom dripping from every syllable. âI donât even know why⌠but from the very first moment I saw her, I hated her. And later I understood. She made sure I did. She showed her cruelty in ways no child should ever endureâbeating me, abusing me, treating me like I was nothing but trash. And I tolerated it⌠because I thought maybe, one day, my dad would realize, heâd save me.â
Your laugh was hollow, bitter. âBut he never came. He never saved me. He never cared.â
You looked away, your throat tightening, but your words wouldnât stop. âThere was only Taehyung. He was the only one who stood by me. But then they sent him away. They ripped him from me, the one person who made me feel like I wasnât completely alone.â
Jungkookâs eyes softened in a way that nearly broke you, but you pressed on.
âWhen I left that house, I left everything behindâthe pain, the memories, the people who destroyed me. Iâve felt nothing but hate for them ever since. That womanâŚâ Your jaw clenched, fire burning in your chest. âSheâs not my mother. She never will be. And my fatherââ You sucked in a trembling breath, your voice dropping into a whisper that hurt even you to say. âThe only fact that connects him to me is blood. Nothing else.â
Your eyes burned as silence settled between you and Jungkook, the air thick with your confession.
And for the first time since you started speaking, your voice wavered. âDo you understand now⌠why I never talk about it?â
That was it.
Jungkook shot up from where he sat, the chair legs scraping violently against the floor. His fist slammed into the nearby table with such force the wood cracked under his knuckles.
âFucking bastards!â he roared, chest heaving. His eyes were blazing, veins straining in his neck. âHow the hell could they do that to you?! Your own fatherâyour own bloodâletting you suffer like that while he stood there?! And that womanââ He spat the word like venom. âI swear, if she even breathes in your direction again, Iâll make sure she regrets the day she ever laid eyes on you!â
The fury radiating off him was suffocating, almost terrifying. But thenâjust as fastâit broke.
He turned to you, eyes glassy, his breathing ragged. In two strides he was in front of you, grabbing your shoulders, and before you could flinch, he pulled you against his chest with a crushing force.
You froze, heart stuttering, as his hand cradled the back of your head and his other arm wrapped around your waist, holding you as though you might disappear if he let go. His face buried into your hair, his voice trembling, broken between his teeth.
âYou didnât deserve that. Not a single second of it.â His breath was hot against your ear. âI shouldâve been there⌠I wish Iâd been there to protect you, to tear them apart before they ever touched you.â
You shivered when you felt him inhale deeply, as if grounding himself in your scent. His anger melted into something rawerâdesperation, pain, a quiet plea he didnât voice.
He hugged you tighter, whispering, almost like a vow only you were meant to hear:
âThey will never touch you again. Not while Iâm here. Not as long as Iâm fucking breathing.â
For a moment, you stood frozen in his arms, stiff, breath caught in your throat. You werenât used to thisâbeing held, being protected. His warmth, his trembling voice, his promises⌠they werenât supposed to affect you like this.
But they did.
The wall you had built for yearsâbrick by brick, scar by scarâstarted to crack under the weight of his words. âThey will never touch you again. Not while Iâm here. Not as long as Iâm fucking breathing.â
Your chest tightened painfully, your vision blurred, and before you could stop it, the first tear slipped down your cheek.
Then another.
And then the flood you never thought would come.
A choked sob tore out of your throat as your hands clutched at his shirt, trembling violently. âWhy⌠why are you doing this to me?â Your voice broke, muffled against his chest. âI told myself Iâd never cry for them⌠never let anyone see me weak again⌠but youââ your sobs shook through your words, âyou make it impossible.â
Jungkook froze for a heartbeat, then his hold on you only tightened. His jaw clenched, and though his own eyes burned, he forced his voice steady. âBecause youâre not weak. Youâve carried this pain alone for too fucking long, Y/n. And I wonât let you anymore.â
You buried your face deeper into him, tears soaking his shirt, shoulders trembling violently as years of suppressed grief and hatred spilled out. For the first time since Taehyung, you were breakingâtruly breakingâin front of someone.
And instead of pushing you away, Jungkook anchored you. One hand stroked the back of your head, the other pressing you closer, like he was holding every shattered piece of you together. He pressed his lips to your temple, lingering there, whispering against your skin, âLet it out. Iâve got you⌠Iâm not going anywhere.â
Your sobs echoed in the room, raw and ugly, but in his arms they werenât shameful. They were human. They were yours. And for once, you werenât carrying them alone.
Time lost all meaning in that moment. Your sobs tore out until your throat burned raw, until your chest ached from the weight of years pressing down on it, until your body had no strength left to keep shaking.
And still, Jungkook held you.
He didnât rush you, didnât hush youâjust let you cry, his hand stroking slowly through your hair, the steady rise and fall of his chest grounding you. Every time your breathing faltered, heâd whisper something low and firm, âIâve got you,â or âJust breathe with me.â
Eventually, the storm broke.
Your sobs weakened into hiccups, then into shallow, trembling breaths. Your fists unclenched from his shirt, fingers still resting limply against his chest. Your eyes stung, swollen from crying, but when you tried to pull away, Jungkook didnât let you. His arms only tightened, as if afraid youâd shatter again the moment he loosened his hold.
âStayâŚâ his voice was quiet, almost unrecognizable in its gentleness. âYou donât need to be alone tonight.â
You let out a weak breath, your forehead resting against his collarbone. ââŚIâm so tired.â
âI know,â he murmured, tucking your hair behind your ear. âRest. Iâll stay.â
For the first time in years, you gave in. Your body slumped fully into him, heavy and drained, and slowlyâso slowlyâyour eyelids fluttered shut. You felt his warmth, his steady heartbeat beneath your ear, the faint brush of his thumb across your back as if reminding you he was still there.
And somewhere in that quiet, without meaning to, you drifted to sleep in his arms.
Jungkook stayed still for a long time, just holding you. His eyes softened as he studied your tear-streaked face, fragile in a way no one else ever got to see. His jaw tightenedânot in anger this time, but in silent promise.
âI wonât let them hurt you again,â he whispered into the stillness, a vow meant only for you. Then, carefully, he shifted, laying you down gently on the bed, pulling the blanket over you.
But he didnât leave. He stayed at your side, leaning back in the chair, watching over you as if you were the most fragile thing in his world.
The room was quiet except for the faint rhythm of your breathing. You were curled under the blanket, face turned toward him, finally at peace after breaking open in front of him. Jungkook sat beside you, elbows resting on his knees, staring at the floor with an expression carved from stone.
His chest felt heavy.
He wasnât supposed to feel this much.
From the very beginning, heâd told himself he was only protecting youâan impulsive marriage, lies to his father, risking his own life, his business, his empire. And yet, tonight⌠hearing the way your voice cracked, seeing your walls collapse, holding you as you finally crumbled⌠it gutted him.
Sheâs been carrying this all alone, he thought, knuckles whitening as he clenched his fists. A child, broken, abandoned, druggedâfucking drugged. His jaw tightened until it hurt. He wanted to storm into your fatherâs house, tear every lie apart, make him bleed for every scar you carried.
But then his gaze flicked to the file.
The reports lay on the table, pages spread open like a wound. His throat worked as he reached for them again. The words glared back at himâthe prescriptions, the dosages. It wasnât treatment for an accident. It was deliberate. Calculated. Whoever had made those decisions hadnât wanted you to heal. Theyâd wanted you to forget.
His stomach twisted.
Jungkook ran a hand through his hair, dragging in a shaky breath. He wasnât a doctor. He could only guess the depth of damage those drugs had left in you. And guesses werenât enoughânot when it came to you.
Silently, he pulled out his phone. His thumb hovered over a familiar name before he pressed it: Hyung.
Kim Seokjin. A man he trusted. A doctor whose field was the mindâtrauma, memory, healing. If there was anyone who could tell him the truth, it was Jin.
He snapped photos of every pageâyour name, the accident details, the endless medication listsâand sent them with a single message:
> Hyung, I need you to tell me what this is. Every effect. Every detail. Donât leave anything out. Itâs important.
The moment the message sent, Jungkook sat back, exhaling through his nose. He rubbed a hand over his face, eyes flicking back to where you slept. You stirred faintly, and his chest tightened again.
Iâll find the truth for you, he thought fiercely. Even if I have to burn every bridge, even if it tears me apart. I swear Iâll uncover everything theyâve hidden from you.
The phone buzzed onceâJin had already seen the message. A reply would come soon. But Jungkook didnât look at it right away.
Instead, he leaned back in his chair, eyes still locked on you, his expression torn between fury and something softer he couldnât name.
The clinking of silverware against porcelain was the only sound in the vast dining hall. The long mahogany table, usually filled with warmth and chatter from Mrs. Jeon, felt like a battlefield now.
Mr. Jeon sat at the head, rigid, unreadable, his presence heavy enough to silence the air itself. His expression wasnât the fiery rage from last night, but something colderâmeasured. His eyes flicked briefly toward Jungkook, then to you, before returning to the untouched food on his plate.
Mrs. Jeonâs gaze darted between father and son, worry knitting her brows. She tried to smile faintly, offering you more rice, but her hands trembled slightly as she set the spoon down.
And Jungkook?
He sat beside you, posture relaxed, one arm draped lazily against the chair, as though he couldnât care less about the storm simmering across from him. His jaw moved slowly as he chewed, calm to the point of defiance.
You, on the other hand, felt the weight of every glance. The silence was suffocating. Your fingers tightened around your chopsticks, unsure whether to eat or simply stare at your plate.
âEat,â Jungkookâs low voice murmured beside you, not looking at you but at his plate. It wasnât a request. It was an order.
You hesitated, but lifted your spoon anyway.
Finally, Mr. Jeon broke the silence, his tone low and sharp, âSo⌠is this how itâs going to be now? No explanation. No accountability. Just pretending nothing happened?â
Mrs. Jeon flinched.
Jungkookâs chewing slowed, then stopped. He set his chopsticks down with a quiet click, lifted his eyes, and met his fatherâs stare head-on. The air turned heavier instantly.
âEverything that needed to be said,â Jungkookâs voice was calm, deliberate, âwas already said last night.â
Your heart skipped.
Mr. Jeonâs knuckles tightened around his fork. âYouââ
âHoney,â Mrs. Jeon interjected softly, placing a hand on her husbandâs wrist, her voice trembling but firm, âplease. Not now. Letâs just⌠eat.â
The silence that followed was deafening.
You lowered your gaze, pretending to focus on the food but your chest was tight. You werenât sure where you belonged in this war of stares and unsaid words. The one thing you knew: Jungkook wasnât budging.
He sat back, exuding that same quiet dominance, but under the table⌠his knee brushed against yours for the briefest moment, as if reminding youâyouâre not alone in this.
The quietness of the dining room was unbearable. The sound of Mrs. Jeonâs spoon lightly clinking against the edge of her bowl was the only attempt to keep things normal. But nothing was normal anymore.
Mr. Jeon sat at the head, his posture straight and rigid. His eyes were sharp, cutting across the table as though every second in silence was another accusation.
âSo⌠is this it? You think you can do as you please, Jungkook? Marry without a word, without respect to your family?â
Jungkookâs chopsticks clicked against the table as he set them down. He didnât flinch. âI already told you, I did what I thought was right.â
âRight?â Mr. Jeonâs voice rose, the restraint cracking. âYou call this right? Tying yourself down to a girl you were supposed to hateââ
âDad,â Jungkookâs tone cut sharp, almost a warning. His eyes flicked toward you for a split second before snapping back to his father. âDonât.â
But Mr. Jeon wasnât finished. His gaze, hard and piercing, shifted to you.
âAnd you,â he said, each word dropping like a stone. âDo you love him?â
Your heart stopped.
The question hung in the air like poison. Mrs. Jeonâs eyes widened, her hand trembling on the table. Even Jungkookâs head turned sharply toward his father.
You opened your mouth, but no sound came. What could you say? That you didnât even understand your own heart yet? That everything was too confusing, too tangled?
Jungkookâs jaw clenched. âDadââ
âNo, I want to hear it from her,â Mr. Jeon growled, eyes locked on you. âDo you even love my son, or is this just another reckless mistake heâs thrown himself into?â
Your throat went dry. Words struggled to form.
Before you could answer, Jungkookâs chair scraped sharply against the floor as he stood. His voice was low but commanding, steel laced with fury.
âShe doesnât owe you an explanation.â
âJungkookââ
âSheâs my wife,â Jungkookâs tone rose, controlled but firm, his stare burning into his fatherâs. âIf you have a problem, you deal with me. Not her.â
The authority in his voice left the table frozen. Even Mr. Jeon blinked, taken aback for a moment.
And youâyour chest tightened, not knowing whether to feel relief at Jungkookâs protection or shaken by the way he just claimed you so firmly in front of his father.
Under the table, you felt it againâhis knee pressing into yours, as if anchoring you there with him, daring anyone to pull you away.
Mr. Jeon leaned forward, his hands pressing against the polished table, veins showing on his skin.
âYou think hiding behind my sonâs words will save you?â His eyes bore into you, sharp, unforgiving. âI asked you something. Do you love him or not?â
Your lips parted, but the weight of his gaze pinned you in place. Every nerve screamed at you to answer, yet your mind was blank.
âDad, enough.â Jungkookâs voice came low, warning. His hand gripped the back of your chair, as if heâd physically shield you if needed.
But Mr. Jeon didnât back down. His tone hardened, cutting.
âI will not sit here and watch my son destroy his life for someone who doesnât even feel the same! So answer me, girl! Do you love him?!â
Your chest tightened. Everyoneâs eyes were on youâMrs. Jeonâs full of silent pleading, Jungkookâs filled with fire, and Mr. Jeonâs blazing with demand.
You swallowed, your throat aching. Words clawed to get out, but you were tornâyour heart confused, raw, fragile.
âIââ you stammered, voice breaking.
But before you could finish, Jungkook snapped. His palm slammed against the table with a sharp crack that echoed through the hall.
âThatâs enough!â
The authority in his voice shook the air. He leaned forward, his body between you and his father, his tone colder than youâd ever heard.
âYou donât get to interrogate her like this. Not now, not ever.â His gaze was unrelenting, his voice steady despite the anger burning beneath. âIf you want answers, you get them from me. Sheâs not here to prove anything to you.â
Mr. Jeonâs jaw tightened, his nostrils flaring. âJungkookââ
âNo,â Jungkook cut him off sharply. âSheâs my wife. And whether you accept it or not, she stays. With me.â
The room went silent. Mrs. Jeon pressed her lips together, tears brimming but unspoken.
You sat frozen, heart hammering, stunned at the sheer force of Jungkookâs words. He hadnât just defended youâheâd claimed you, shielded you, fought for you in front of his father.
Mr. Jeon finally pushed back his chair, his voice low with restrained fury.
âYouâll regret this, Jungkook. One day, youâll see.â
And with that, he left the table, the echo of his footsteps heavy against the marble floor.
Jungkook stood still, his fists tight, his shoulders rising and falling with barely contained rage. Then, slowly, he turned his head, his eyes finding yours.
And in them, for the first time, you saw it clearlyâhe wasnât just protecting you. He was already too deep in.
The room finally felt quieter. Mr. Jeonâs footsteps had faded, leaving only the faint scrape of a chair and the distant hum of the morning outside. Mrs. Jeon lingered for a moment, her eyes on Jungkook, then quietly excused herself, leaving you two alone.
You sat frozen, your hands still gripping the edge of the table, heart hammering from the whirlwind of the confrontation. Jungkookâs chair scraped softly as he leaned back slightly, still close enough that you could feel the heat radiating off him. His jaw was tight, fists resting on the table, knuckles white, but his eyesâthose dark, stormy eyesâwere locked on you.
For a moment, neither of you spoke. The tension wasnât gone; it had just shifted, concentrated between you like a live wire.
Finally, his voice broke the silence, low and rough. âAre you okay?â
You blinked, startled. âI⌠I donât know.â Your voice was small, barely above a whisper.
He leaned forward slightly, one hand hovering over yours but not touching yet. âYou donât have to answer right now,â he murmured. âI just⌠needed to make sure youâre safe. That no oneâespecially himâmakes you feel threatened again.â
Your chest tightened at the tenderness beneath his anger. Slowly, hesitantly, you placed your hand over his. It was warm, steady, grounding.
He covered it with his own, fingers curling around yours lightly, almost possessively. âYou donât have to face them alone anymore,â he added softly, voice quieter now, almost vulnerable. âNot ever. Iâll be here. Always.â
A shiver ran down your spine at his words. You looked up at him, meeting his gaze, and for the first time that morning, felt a flicker of something that wasnât fear, confusion, or anger. Something calmer, steadierâa sense of being protected, of belonging.
You exhaled slowly, leaning slightly toward him, just enough that your shoulder brushed his. âThank you,â you whispered, voice trembling, âfor⌠for not letting me face it alone.â
His lips twitched into the faintest half-smile, though his dark eyes softened even more. âYou donât have to thank me,â he murmured. âItâs not over, and Iâll never stop making sure youâre safe. But for now⌠just trust me.â
And for a few precious moments, you did. Just sitting there, hands intertwined, hearts still pounding, the storm outside the dining room temporarily held at bay.
The clinic smelled faintly of antiseptic, clean and sterile, a sharp contrast to the chaos of your thoughts. Jungkook led you to a private consultation room. The tension between you didnât dissolveâif anything, it was heavier, every step forward laced with unease.
A moment later, Kim Seokjin stepped in, his face calm but serious. He gestured for you to sit. âJungkook told me everything,â he began, eyes flicking between the two of you. âAnd heâs right to bring you here. This is⌠important.â
You swallowed hard, your hands twisting in your lap. Jungkook stayed close, his presence grounding but silent, letting you brace yourself.
Jin opened the files, scanning them quickly before looking up at both of you. His expression darkened.
âThese medicinesâŚâ he began slowly, choosing his words carefully. âTheyâre not for normal post-accident treatment. From what I can see, these are psychoactive drugs designed to suppress memory and cognitive functionâcommonly used to erase or dampen traumatic memories.â
Your stomach lurched.
He continued, tone grim. âThe dosages given to you were extremely high for a child your age. Far beyond what would be safe for any therapeutic purpose. At that level, these drugs could have caused permanent brain damage, or even death.â
You felt the floor tilt beneath you. Your hands trembled as you gripped the edge of the chair.
âYou⌠you mean,â you whispered, voice breaking, âall those years⌠they werenât just trying to make me forget. They could have⌠killed me?â
Jinâs gaze was steady, compassionate but unflinching. âYes. Any child in your conditionâalready recovering from severe traumaâshould never have been given that many drugs. The fact that you survived without catastrophic brain injury is⌠remarkable.â
Jungkookâs fists clenched on the table beside you. His jaw was tight, his eyes storm-dark as he studied the files in silence, anger coiling around every word.
Jin continued, softer now, turning to you. âMemory suppression at that level can also create gaps, confusion, fragmented recollection. It can affect emotional regulation, cognitive development, even the ability to trust people later in life. Many of the symptoms youâve describedâthe blank periods, the inability to recall your pastâfit this pattern exactly.â
Your hands were shaking so badly you couldnât stop them. You wanted to curl into yourself, to vanish, but Jungkookâs steady presence beside you kept you anchored.
âAnd,â Jin added, voice dropping, âthe combination of high dosage and long-term administration⌠itâs not just unethical. Itâs criminal. Whoever was responsible was playing with your life.â
You felt bile rise, tears threatening to spill again. Your childhoodâthe accident, the coma, the abuse, the memory gapsâit all suddenly made sense. And yet, the clarity burned.
Jungkookâs hand found yours, gripping it tightly, his thumb rubbing circles into your palm. His voice, low and fierce, murmured, âI swear⌠Iâll make them pay. I wonât let a single person ever hurt you like that again.â
You pressed your hand against his chest, trembling, letting yourself lean on him for the first time in years.
Even in the sterile quiet of the clinic, with the truth laid bare, one thing was undeniable: you werenât alone anymoreâand Jungkook would move heaven and earth to make sure of it.
Your voice came out barely above a whisper, shaky and unsure.
âJin Oppa⌠if they forced me to forget⌠if those drugs erased parts of meââ your throat tightened, ââcan the memories come back?â
The room fell silent. Jungkookâs grip on your hand tightened instantly, like he was bracing for the answer as much as you were.
Jin sighed, folding his arms, his expression thoughtful but grave. âIt depends,â he said carefully. âSometimes, suppressed memories resurface on their ownâtriggered by a sound, a face, a place. Sometimes, they come back in fragments, like pieces of a puzzle. ButâŚâ He looked at you gently. âWith drugs this strong, thereâs a chance parts of your memory were permanently damaged. Some moments may never return in full.â
Your chest constricted. You bit your lip, trying not to cry again, but the words still broke out, fragile and desperate.
âSo Iâll never know? Iâll never remember what really happened?â
Jinâs gaze softened. âI didnât say never. The brain is resilient, especially in children. Sometimes memories bury themselves so deep that it takes yearsâor the right triggerâto surface. Therapy can help. But⌠you need to prepare yourself that not everything will come back.â
Your hands trembled in your lap. âBut I need to know,â you whispered, almost to yourself. âI need to know what they made me forget. What was so terrible that theyâd⌠theyâd rather erase me than let me remember.â
Jungkook leaned forward, his jaw tight, speaking before Jin could. His voice was rough, steady, but laced with a storm of emotion.
âEven if your memories donât come back⌠Iâll find out the truth. Iâll dig every fucking grave, overturn every lie, until we know who did this and why. You donât have to carry it alone anymore.â
Your eyes burned as you looked at him. For the first time, you let yourself believe him.
Jungkookâs hand was still gripping yours, knuckles white. His eyes snapped back to Jin, sharp and demanding.
âThere has to be something,â he said, voice low but edged with anger. âYouâre telling me they fed her these drugs for monthsâmaybe yearsâand now weâre supposed to just sit and wait for her brain to âdecideâ if it wants to remember?â
âJungkookââ Jin started softly, but Jungkook slammed his palm against the table, making you flinch. His voice cracked with frustration.
âNo, hyung! Thatâs not good enough. She deserves to know. I needââ he cut himself off, dragging a hand through his hair, chest heaving. âI need you to tell me thereâs something. Anything. Therapy, hypnosis, medicineâwhatever the fuck it takes. Tell me thereâs a way to help her.â
Jin didnât flinch at Jungkookâs fire. He leaned forward, calm, firm, the kind of tone only a seasoned doctor could carry.
âThere are methods. Memory therapy, trauma-focused treatment, hypnosis⌠sometimes they work. Sometimes they donât. But understand this, Jungkook: forcing memories back can be dangerous. Itâs not like unlocking a doorâitâs ripping open a wound. Sheâs already fragile. If you push too hard, she could break.â
Your breath caught in your throat. Jungkook turned his head toward you then, eyes blazing with equal parts fear and determination.
âI donât care if it breaks me,â he growled, voice rough, gaze locked on yours. âBut I canât watch you live half a life, not knowing the truth. If thereâs even one chanceâone fucking chanceâyouâll get those memories back, Iâll take it.â
Jin sighed, studying him, then you. âIf you both want to try, Iâll guide you. But itâll take time, patience, and strength. Not just from herâbut from you too, Jungkook. Because if she crumbles, youâll have to be the one to hold her together.â
The weight of the words settled like stone between you three. Jungkookâs hand squeezed yours harder, like a vow.
Jinâs office was quiet except for the hum of the machines. After drawing your blood, he gently guided you into the CT room, running the scan with practiced precision. Jungkook stayed just outside the glass, hands shoved into his pockets, but you could feel his gaze burning into you the whole time.
When the scan was done, Jin led you back to the small consultation room. He sat across from you, notebook in hand, voice soft.
âAlright, Y/N. Iâm going to ask you some simple questions, okay? Donât stress, just answer what comes naturally.â
You nodded, though your chest was tight.
âWhat was the name of your primary school?â
Silence. Your lips parted, but nothing came out. A blank wall in your mind. You frowned, fingers curling into your lap.
âFavorite color?â
You blinked. A question so ordinary, so harmless. But your throat went dry. You didnât know. Not because you couldnât chooseâbecause the answer wasnât there.
ââŚIâI donât know,â you whispered, heat stinging your eyes.
Jungkook shifted in his seat, fists clenching. Jin kept his expression calm, scribbling a note before looking back at you.
âFavorite food?â
That did it. Your heart clenched, breath shaky. You looked down at your hands. âI⌠I donât know that either.â
The room suddenly felt suffocating. These were questions anyone should be able to answerâquestions a child could answer without thinking. But you? You had nothing. Not even fragments. And the realization cut deeper than any wound: you never noticed until now. You never stopped to think about these tiny pieces of yourself⌠because there was nothing to remember.
âI donât know me,â you choked out, voice trembling. âI donât even know what I liked as a kid. I didnât even realize⌠I didnât even notice until now.â
The tears you had been holding back spilled freely, shoulders shaking. It wasnât just about colors or food or schoolâit was about you. About the parts of your life stolen, erased, leaving you with hollow spaces where memories should be.
Jungkook immediately rose, moving to kneel beside you. His hand grabbed yours tightly, grounding you, his jaw trembling with barely contained rage and helplessness.
âDonâtâdonât do this to yourself,â he whispered, almost pleading. âYouâre not less because of what they did. Youâre still you. Youâre here, right in front of me. Youâreââ he cut off, swallowing hard, his thumb brushing your damp cheek.
Jin exhaled quietly, giving you both space, but his eyes were sharp. âThis is what the drugs did. They didnât just erase memoriesâthey erased identity. But listen to me, Y/N: identity isnât only about the past. Itâs about what you choose now. Weâll fight for the fragments that can be recovered. And for the rest, we build new ones.â
Your chest ached, but the warmth of Jungkookâs grip, the steadiness in Jinâs tone⌠it kept you from collapsing completely.
Jin offered you a small smile, gentle but firm.
âY/N, why donât you wait outside for a bit? I need a word with Jungkook.â
You hesitated, eyes flickering to him. Jungkookâs hand was still wrapped around yours, reluctant to let go, but finally he nodded.
âGo. Iâll come out soon.â
With one last glance, you stepped out, the soft click of the door leaving a heavy silence behind.
Jungkook straightened, crossing his arms tightly over his chest, bracing for whatever Jin was about to say.
Jin didnât waste time. He set the file down, staring at him with a doctorâs seriousness but also the weight of an older brother.
âKook⌠this isnât just trauma weâre dealing with. Those medicines were administered in insane dosages. Do you understand what that means? Itâs a miracle she survived without permanent brain damage.â
Jungkookâs jaw clenched, eyes flashing. âI know. I read the fucking reports. Whoever did this to her⌠they didnât just want to dull her pain. They wanted to erase her.â
Jinâs brows furrowed, voice dropping lower. âExactly. And that kind of deliberate act⌠isnât random. It wasnât an accident. It was controlled, planned.â He leaned closer, his tone pointed. âYou need to prepare her for the possibility that the accident wasnât just an accident, Jungkook. Someone wanted her memories gone.â
Jungkookâs chest tightened, the weight of those words pressing into him. He ran a hand through his hair, frustration seeping out in a shaky exhale.
âSheâs already breaking, hyung. You saw her. She couldnât even answer what her favorite color was. How the hell am I supposed to tell her this? That her whole life was manipulated?â
Jinâs gaze softened, but his words didnât.
âBy protecting her, you might be keeping her safeâbut youâre also keeping her blind. And blind people⌠they walk right into traps.â
That hit hard. Jungkook looked away, fists curling, the conflict tearing him apart.
Jin placed a hand on his shoulder.
âYou love her, donât you?â
Jungkook froze. His throat worked, but no words came out. The silence was loud enough.
âNo.â His voice came rough, broken around the edges, but firm. âItâs not like that. I donât⌠love her.â
The silence that followed was heavy, almost suffocating. Jinâs eyes narrowed, studying his brother as if dissecting him with scalpel-precision. He didnât believe itânot for a second.
âThen why,â Jin asked quietly, âwould you throw your life, your career, your business, your own family away for her? Why do you care about her that you risk your damn lifeâ
Jungkookâs jaw flexed, but he didnât answer. His hands fisted tightly at his sides, nails biting into his palms.
Jin gave a bitter, knowing scoff.
âYouâre lying, Kook. Not to me. To yourself.â
Jungkookâs breath caughtâshaky, unevenâbut he forced his expression back into stone, the same mask he always wore when emotions got too close.
âI married her because her father was going to force her into something she didnât want. Thatâs it. I protected her because⌠it was the only thing I could do in that moment. Nothing else.â
âNothing else?â Jin echoed softly, his eyes narrowing further. âThen why do you look like youâre bleeding every time she cries?â
That landed like a punch. Jungkookâs throat tightened, a muscle ticking in his jaw, but he still didnât look up. His voice came out low, almost breakingâ
âI told myself to stay away from her. I told myself Iâm not the man for her. I canât be. So donâtâdonât put words in my mouth, hyung.â
Jin let out a slow exhale, leaning back with a look of quiet pity.
âYou can keep saying it, Jungkook. But the more you fight it, the deeper youâre sinking.â
Jungkook stayed silent, shoulders tense, fighting against the truth in every syllable.
You sat quietly in the hallway outside Jinâs office, hands folded tightly in your lap, your leg bouncing restlessly without you even realizing. The sterile smell of disinfectants hung in the air, the faint ticking of a wall clock only making the silence heavier.
Every passing second felt longer. What was Jin telling Jungkook inside that needed you gone? Why did he look at you like that before asking you to step out?
When the door finally opened, you quickly stood up. Jungkook stepped out first, his broad frame filling the doorway. His face was unreadableâtoo unreadable. His jaw was tense, eyes avoiding yours, shoulders weighed down as though he had walked out carrying something he didnât want you to see.
âAre we⌠done?â you asked softly, searching his face for an answer.
He gave the smallest nod, shoving his hands deep into his pockets. âYeah. Letâs go.â His voice was low, clipped, as if speaking any more might crack something open.
You frowned. âWhat did he say to you?â
His eyes flickered toward you for half a second, and in that flash, you caught itâexhaustion, conflict, something raw that he quickly buried again. He looked away, brushing past you toward the exit.
âNothing you need to worry about.â
But that wasnât true. You knew it in your bones.
For a second, you almost called out, almost pressed furtherâbut the way his shoulders were set, rigid and closed off, stopped you. He wasnât ready. Not now.
So you followed silently, though your heart was heavy. He had that look againâthe one he always wore when he was fighting a war inside himself.
And what scared you most was the thought that maybe⌠maybe you were the war.
The car ride back was suffocating.
The hum of the engine filled the silence, headlights cutting through the late afternoon haze. You sat on the passenger side, arms crossed tightly, staring out of the window but not really seeing anything. The city blurred past, but your mind was locked on the way Jungkook walked out of Jinâs officeâsilent, heavy, like heâd left pieces of himself behind.
Jungkookâs hands gripped the wheel tighter than necessary, veins standing out on his forearms. He didnât turn on the radio. Didnât say a word. He just drove, eyes fixed on the road, jaw clenched hard enough to hurt.
The silence was unbearable. Every second stretched, thick with everything unspoken.
Finally, you broke it.
âTake me to Taehyungâs apartment.â
His head snapped toward you for a second before he forced his eyes back on the road. âWhat?â His tone was sharp, disbelieving.
You turned in your seat, meeting his profile with steady eyes. âYou heard me. Take me to Taehyungâs place.â
His fingers curled tighter on the steering wheel. âWhy?â
âBecause heâs the only one who has answers to my questions,â you said firmly, your voice cutting through the tension. âHe was there when I woke up. He told me everything. And if thereâs anyone who knows what happened to me⌠itâs him.â
Jungkookâs jaw flexed. His nostrils flared as he inhaled sharply. âNo.â
Your eyebrows knitted. âNo?â
âI said no.â His tone was like steel. âYouâre not going there. Not now.â
Your blood heated at his stubbornness. âWhy are you stopping me? This is my life, Jungkook. My past. My memories. If I donât ask him, who else will tell me the truth?â
His grip on the wheel tightened until his knuckles turned white. He didnât answer right away, his silence more infuriating than words.
âJungkook,â you pushed, âI need to knowââ
âI said no!â His voice cracked like a whip in the confined space, startling you into silence. His chest heaved, eyes hard and burning as they stayed locked on the road. âNot tonight. Not like this.â
The car fell silent again, but this time the air was heavier, hotterâcharged with frustration, with the weight of truths neither of you were ready for.
And yet, even through your anger, one thought refused to leave your mind.
Why did it feel like he was protecting you from something Taehyung might say?
The car screeched to a halt at a red light. Jungkookâs hand slammed against the steering wheel, the sharp sound jolting you.
âWhy are you so damn stubborn?â he bit out, finally turning to you. His eyes burnedâfrustration, exhaustion, something darker all mixed together. âYou think running to Taehyung in this state will give you peace? Youâll just break yourself more.â
Your throat tightened, but you forced your voice steady. âAt least breaking will mean I know. You donât get it, Jungkook. I canât live like this anymoreâpieces missing, my whole life a lie.â
âI do get it!â he roared, leaning closer, his breath ragged. âYou think itâs easy for me to watch you rip yourself apart? To see you chasing after things that could crush you when Iâm the oneââ he stopped himself abruptly, chest heaving, fists trembling against his thighs.
âThe one what?â you demanded, your voice cracking. âThe one protecting me? The one lying to me? Or the one deciding what I should or shouldnât know?â
The red light changed, but neither of you moved. The world outside blurred away; it was just the two of you in that suffocating space.
âYou donât understandâŚâ he whispered, more to himself than to you, then suddenly snapped his gaze back to yours. âI canât let you go to him. Not now. Not when youâre like this. Damn it, Yn, Iââ
âYou what?â you pressed, leaning toward him, heart pounding. âSay it, Jungkook! Stop pulling me in and shutting me out!â
The tension snapped. His hand shot out, gripping your wrist, pulling you closer across the console until your faces were inches apart. His jaw clenched, his breath hot against your lips.
âI donât know how to let you go,â he ground out, voice rough, almost breaking. âI donât know why Iâm risking everythingâmy business, my family, my fucking sanityâfor you. But I canât watch you destroy yourself. I wonât.â
Your chest heaved, matching his, the closeness dizzying. You shouldâve pulled back, but you didnât. âThen stop controlling me,â you whispered, trembling. âIf you want me that much⌠then trust me enough to choose.â
For a beat, neither of you moved. His forehead brushed yours, unintentional, but intimate. His hold on your wrist loosened, yet he didnât let go. The car seemed to shrink around you, the silence so charged it felt like fire under your skin.
Your eyes locked with his, steady despite the tremor in your chest. âIâm going,â you said firmly, not flinching even when his grip tightened. âWith or without you.â
âYnââ his voice cracked low, dangerous, almost pleading. His hold shifted from your wrist to your hand, as if he couldnât quite bring himself to let go. âDonât do this to me.â
âIâm not doing anything to you,â you shot back, your voice rising. âThis is about me. My life. My past. You canât cage me just because youâre scared of what I might find.â
Something flickered in his eyesâfear, raw and unguardedâbut he masked it quickly, jaw clenching hard enough you thought it might shatter. For a moment, you thought heâd refuse, that heâd lock the doors and drive you anywhere but Taehyungâs.
But then he exhaled, a sharp, defeated sound, and slammed the car into gear.
âFine,â he ground out, voice edged like a blade. âWeâll go. But donât regret it, Yn. Donât fucking regret dragging me into this.â
You swallowed, surprised at the bitter edge of his wordsâbut beneath it, you heard the tremor, the ache he couldnât hide.
He pressed the accelerator, the car surging forward. Neither of you spoke, the silence thick with everything unsaidâanger, fear, and something much more fragile, too close to break open.
But you didnât back off. You sat straighter, eyes fixed ahead, forcing yourself not to waver. This was itâthe answers youâd been chasing. And whether Jungkook liked it or not, he was coming with you.
You pressed the doorbell, your heart beating erratically in your chest. The silence of the hallway felt louder with every second that passed, Jungkook standing behind you with his hands shoved deep in his pockets, his face carved in stoneâbored eyes hiding a storm you knew was there.
The lock clicked. The door creaked open.
And standing there was Sera.
Your breath caught. For a moment, you didnât move, your mind trying to catch up with what your eyes were seeing.
Her expression mirrored yoursâshock widening her eyes, her lips parting soundlessly. But quickly, it shiftedâfear flickered across her face, almost as if sheâd been caught.
Behind you, Jungkook stiffened. His gaze sharpened, his usual indifference cracking into raw disbelief. â...Sera?â His voice was low, dangerous, carrying the weight of a hundred questions.
Seraâs throat bobbed as she swallowed, fumbling with the doorframe as if to steady herself. âY-Yn... O-Oppa⌠what are you doing here?â Her voice trembled, eyes darting between you and Jungkook like sheâd just seen a ghost.
The world narrowed. Your confusion surged. Why is she here? In Taehyungâs apartment?
And for the first time, fear stabbed at your chest. Because something about the way Sera was looking at youâlike she knew more than she shouldâfelt wrong.
Jungkook stepped closer, his tall frame nearly brushing yours as he loomed forward, voice laced with suspicion.
âWhat the hell are you doing here, Sera?â
The silence at the door stretched, your heart hammering. Then, from the dimly lit apartment, another figure appeared.
Taehyung.
He froze the second his eyes landed on you and Jungkook, his expression slipping from casual to utterly stunned. â...YN?â
The weight in your chest doubled. Jungkookâs jaw flexed, his gaze narrowing like a blade.
Slowly, Jungkook tilted his head, voice deadly calm.
âWhatâs she doing here, Taehyung? At your place?â
The tension cracked like lightning. Taehyung glanced quickly at Sera, then back at Jungkook, his throat working hard before he forced a weak explanation.
âWe⌠weâre just working on a project.â
Jungkook let out a short, humorless laugh, eyebrows raising. âA project?â He looked directly at Sera now, eyes sharp and mocking. âThatâs funny. Because last time I checkedâyou come to me for your projects. Isnât that right, Sera?â
Sera froze, her lips parting but no words came. Her eyes flicked away, unable to meet his.
Jungkook smirked, but it was bitter, his voice cutting like glass. âWhatâs wrong? Cat got your tongue?â
The air was suffocating, heavy with things unsaid.
And then Taehyung stepped forward, jaw tight, voice low but pointed. âWell⌠maybe because youâre too busy with your wife these days⌠so she had to come to me.â
Your entire body stilled. The word wife echoed like thunder in your ears.
Jungkookâs head snapped toward Taehyung, the smirk vanishing into something darker, eyes flashing with unrestrained fury. The muscle in his jaw ticked as he took a dangerous step closer, voice sharp and low.
âCareful with your words, Taehyung.â
The hallway felt like a battlegroundâJungkook seething, Taehyung unflinching, Sera caught in between, and you⌠stuck at the center, drowning in confusion.
Jungkookâs chest heaved, shoulders squared like he was ready to rip the walls down if Taehyung pushed one more inch. Taehyung didnât flinchâhis glare met Jungkookâs head-on, sharp and unyielding.
âYou think glaring at me is going to change the truth?â Taehyung said bitterly, stepping forward until the tension nearly sparked. âYou walk around like you own the world, Jungkook. Like no one else matters. But donât forgetâYNâs life didnât start when you showed up.â
Jungkookâs nostrils flared, his voice dropping into a lethal growl. âAnd donât forget, TaehyungâIâm the one keeping her alive right now. You think youâve done enough? You have no idea what it costs meâwhat Iâve sacrificedâto protect her.â
Seraâs shaky voice cut in weakly, âStop it, both of youââ
âStay out of this,â Jungkook and Taehyung snapped at the same time, their voices crashing like thunder, eyes never leaving each other.
You stood frozen between them, your pulse racing as if the air itself was being ripped apart. Jungkookâs fists clenched at his sides, Taehyungâs jaw locked, and you knewâjust one more word could set off a war right in front of you.
âENOUGH!â your voice finally broke through, sharp and commanding. Both of them halted, their breathing heavy, their eyes snapping toward you.
You looked straight at Jungkook first, your voice steady even though your chest was tight.
âDonât forget why we came here, Jungkook.â
The tension in his face shifted, just barelyâhis lips pressed together, his nostrils flaring as he dragged his gaze away from Taehyung to focus on you.
Then you turned to Taehyung, heart pounding but determined.
âWe need to talk.â
The weight in the hallway changed instantlyâstill heavy, but all the focus now shifted to you.
Taehyungâs eyes lingered on Jungkook a moment too long, his jaw tight, but then he finally sighed and stepped back, motioning toward the door.
âFine. Come in.â
You walked past Sera, whose uneasy eyes followed you, her hands fidgeting nervously. Jungkook brushed in behind you, silent but radiating frustration, his presence filling the small apartment with heat.
Inside, the living room was modestâbooks scattered on the table, a laptop open with notes sprawled across the screen. But none of it mattered. The tension between the three of you was louder than anything else.
Taehyung crossed his arms, leaning against the counter. âAlright. You wanted to talkâso talk.â
You clutched the file tighter in your hands, your throat tight, but you raised your chin. âI need the truth, Taehyung. No excuses. No half answers. I found these reports.â You placed the file down on the table with a sharp thud. âAnd I need to know everything. About my accident. About the medicines. About what really happened to me.â
For the first time, Taehyungâs confident expression faltered. His lips parted, but no words came out.
Behind you, Jungkookâs voice cut low, almost like a warning.
âAnswer her, Taehyung. Right now.â
The room felt like a cageâyour question hanging heavy in the air, Jungkookâs anger simmering close to eruption, and Taehyung cornered between his loyalty, his secrets, and the weight of your stare.
âTaehyungâŚâ your voice wavered, but your eyes didnât. âTell me. What exactly happened that day? What am I missing? I donât remember anything before the accidentâjust tell me everything.â
He froze. His knuckles whitened where his hands gripped his arms, and for a moment, his gaze dropped to the floor, as if it was easier to face the ground than your face.
âYnâŚâ his voice came low, strangled, ââŚdonât ask me this.â
âNo!â you snapped, stepping closer. âDonât give me that. You think I donât deserve to know? You think I can live like thisâhalf a life, half a memory? Tell me what you know. Stop protecting me, Taehyung. Iâm not that child anymore.â
Jungkook, standing behind you, said nothingâbut his body was coiled tight, like a predator waiting. His glare bore into Taehyung, sharpening the silence, daring him to lie.
Taehyung finally lifted his eyes to you, glassy with something between guilt and sorrow. His lips trembled, words fighting to escape, but all that came out at first was a shaky whisper:
âYou really donât remember⌠anything before that night?â
Your chest tightened. âI remember the pain. Waking up. Nothing else.â Your voice cracked. âPlease, Taehyung. Just tell me what I canât remember. Tell me what happened to me⌠what happened to my mom.â
The file sat heavy between you all on the table, like an open wound, demanding the truth heâd buried for years.
Taehyungâs jaw clenched, his eyes darting between you and Jungkook before landing back on you. His voice was quiet, almost fragile, when he finally spoke:
âIt was⌠October 24th.â
You frowned. âWhat?â
âYour momâs birthday,â he said, his throat tightening. âYou were nine. You were so excitedâyou wanted everything perfect for her. You spent the whole day drawing a card, making her favorite cake with the house staff⌠I remember you running around the house, barefoot, laughingâŚâ His voice faltered, and he looked away.
Your chest squeezed painfully. A strange ache, like a memory you couldnât reach, pressed at the back of your mind.
âThat nightâŚâ Taehyung inhaled shakily, ââŚEveryone was ready for the party but then your mom left taking you with her. Your father, I was at home, waiting. But thenââ his voice cracked, ââŚthe call came. The accident. The car crash thatâŚâ
âThat killed her,â you whispered, finishing the words like a knife to your throat.
He nodded, eyes shining. âAnd left you⌠in that coma.â
Your fingers trembled against your lap. The date, the image of a birthday, the idea of your little self preparing a surpriseâit all pressed against your mind like shadows just out of reach.
You whispered, hollow: âI donât remember any of that.â
âI know,â Taehyung said softly. âBecause after you woke up⌠you werenât the same. You didnât remember her. You didnât remember anything before.
Silence fell. Your pulse thundered in your ears. Jungkookâs hand twitched by his side, fists curling tighter.
You pushed forward, voice trembling with frustration, âAnd what about these medicines, Taehyung? What are they? Why were they giving me this?â You shoved the file toward him, the papers trembling in your grip.
Taehyung froze. His brows furrowed as he skimmed through the list. âTheseâŚ?â His lips parted in shock. âIâI donât know.â
You blinked. âWhat do you mean you donât know?â
âI knew about the coma. About the accident. I knew you lost your memories when you woke up⌠but these?â His voice grew tighter, lower. âYn, no one ever told me they were giving you medication like this. I was a kid too, I didnât⌠I couldnâtâŚâ He shut his eyes, jaw clenching as if he hated himself for not having the answers.
Your breath hitched. âSo youâre telling me you donât know anything? You were all I had, Taehyung. You saw me every day. And you never noticed?â
He flinched. His hands balled into fists. âI noticed you were⌠different. That you were tired all the time, that you had headaches, that sometimes youâd get sick and faint. But I thought⌠I thought it was the accidentâs aftereffects. I never thoughtââ
Jungkook, silent until now, suddenly cut in, his tone low and sharp. âThese arenât accident meds. These are memory suppression drugs. High-dose.â His jaw flexed as he stared at Taehyung. âAnd if you didnât know, then someone was hiding it from both of you.â
Taehyungâs eyes widened, flickering between you and Jungkook. âMemory⌠suppressionâŚ?â
Your knees felt weak. You gripped the edge of the table to stay upright, your voice barely above a whisper. âSo⌠someone wanted me to forget. It wasnât just the accident. It was deliberate.â
The room filled with a suffocating silence. Taehyung looked shattered. Jungkook looked like he was barely containing his rage. And youâyour whole body trembled as the ground beneath your past cracked wider and wider.
Taehyungâs hand trembled as he set the file down, his gaze fixed on the floor. His voice cracked when he spoke, low and heavy.
âYour mom⌠I remember her last words.â
You froze. Every muscle in your body went rigid. âWhatâŚ?â
He lifted his eyes to you, and for the first time, you saw them shine with unshed tears. âShe said⌠protect her. Always protect you, Yn. No matter what. And from that moment, I swore I would. I promised her.â His jaw tightened, his voice breaking. âBut I failed.â
Your lips parted, but no sound came. The room seemed to close in around youâthe faint hum of the fridge, the ticking clock, even Jungkookâs steady breathing faded.
Taehyungâs shoulders shook as he continued, âI tried to be there, I tried to stand between you and everything that wanted to break you. But I was a child too. And when they tore me away from you, I couldnât keep my promise. You were left alone with them⌠with all that pain. And Iââ His voice cracked, and he turned his face away, ashamed. âI failed you. I failed her.â
Your chest tightened painfully, your throat burning as tears welled.
Jungkookâs jaw clenched, his fists tightening at his sides. He didnât say a word, but the storm brewing in his eyes made it clear: Taehyungâs guilt wasnât the only thing suffocating the roomâthere was rage, suspicion, and something darker curling in Jungkookâs silence.
Taehyungâs voice trembled, his eyes distant as if he was dragged back into that night.
âShe was there,â he whispered, almost to himself. âI saw her⌠taking her last breath.â His throat tightened, the memory choking him. âHer last words⌠she said them with so much pain, but so much love too. And Iââ his voice crackedââI canât forget it. No matter how much I try.â
Your lips quivered, your vision blurred as hot tears finally spilled down your cheeks. You tried to hold yourself together, but the dam broke. Silent sobs racked your chest, each one heavier than the last.
Taehyung looked at you then, guilt carved deep into his face. He whispered, âIâm sorry, Yn. I couldnât save her. I couldnât save you.â
You pressed a trembling hand to your mouth, muffling the sound that escaped. The image you never hadâthe moment of your motherâs last breathâsuddenly painted itself before your eyes through his words. It was too much, too cruel, and yet you couldnât stop yourself from asking for more.
Behind you, Jungkookâs jaw flexed, his hand twitching as if he wanted to reach for you but didnât know if he should. His eyes burned into Taehyung with a fury he couldnât contain, but the sight of you cryingâbroken, tremblingâkept him still.
The silence afterward was unbearable, filled only with your stifled cries and Taehyungâs heavy breathing.
Jungkookâs low voice cut through the heavy silence like a blade.
âWaitâŚâ his dark eyes narrowed at Taehyung. âHer father married your mother after her motherâs death. Then how the hell were you there that night, Taehyung? Did you live with them before did you already know them?â
The question hung in the air, sharp and accusing.
You froze, your tear-streaked face turning toward Taehyung in shock. That thought had never crossed your mindâhow did he know? How was he there?
Taehyungâs eyes flickeredâjust for a secondâsomething unreadable passed through them. His lips parted, but no words came out. His hands clenched at his sides, knuckles whitening.
âAnswer me,â Jungkook snapped, his voice dropping even lower, dripping suspicion. He took a step closer, towering, protective but also ruthless. âYouâre not making sense, Taehyung. How did you know her motherâs last words if you werenât living in that house already?â
Your stomach twisted, confusion swirling with fear. You stared at Taehyung, voice trembling as you whispered, âTae⌠is that true? Did you⌠know me before? Before everything?â
Taehyung looked at you, guilt burning in his eyes, his lips trembling like he wanted to speak but couldnât.
The silence stretched, suffocating, until Jungkookâs tone sharpened even more:
âWhat the hell are you hiding from her?â
Taehyungâs throat bobbed as he struggled to form the words.
âIâIâŚâ he stuttered, his voice cracking under the weight. His eyes darted between you and Jungkook, panic and shame swimming inside them. Finally, he exhaled a shuddering breath.
âMy mom⌠she was the maid in the Kim mansion long before your parentsâ marriage.â
Your brows furrowed, but you didnât interrupt. Something inside you was already tightening, bracing for what was about to come.
Taehyungâs fists clenched, his knuckles trembling as he pushed the truth out.
âYour father⌠and my mother⌠they had an affair before he married your mom. But thenâhis parents forced him to marry her. Your mom. She was his wife. The real one.â
Jungkookâs eyes darkened, sharp as knives, watching every flicker of Taehyungâs face. He didnât say a wordâhe didnât need to. The silence pressed harder than any threat.
Taehyungâs lips quivered. âAnd then⌠one night, despite being married⌠heâhe made a mistake with my mom.â His voice broke on the last word, his head dropping, shoulders curling in shame. âAnd that mistake⌠is me.â
The words hit you like a bullet.
Your breath caught, the room spinning around you. âW-whatâŚ?â Your voice was nothing more than a whisper, fragile, breaking.
Jungkookâs jaw tightened, his hand balling into a fist at his side as he muttered coldly, âSo youâre saying⌠youâre her fatherâs son too.â
Taehyungâs head lifted, shameful tears in his eyes. âYes. Iâm his bastard.â
The air snapped with tension.
You stumbled a step back, your knees weak. The ground beneath you felt like it was breaking apart. âNo⌠no, that canâtâTae, youâŚâ You shook your head violently, tears pricking your eyes. âYouâre saying youâre⌠myââ The word stuck in your throat, choking you.
Taehyungâs eyes stayed locked on you, wet and heavy with something that wasnât just shameâconfusion, too. His words cracked the silence like glass shattering.
âWell⌠thatâs what my mother always told me,â he admitted, voice rough. âThat Iâm the result of her and your fatherâs⌠mistake.â
You froze, your throat going dry, your chest tight.
âButâŚâ Taehyungâs hand curled into his shirt over his chest. âI couldnât accept it. I didnât want to believe it. So⌠I did a DNA test.â
The air dropped into a deeper silence. Even Jungkookâs sharp breathing could be heard in the stillness.
Taehyungâs eyes fell, shame and relief flickering in them both. âAnd it didnât match. Not with him. Not at all. So noââ he forced the words out, harsher, like he needed you to understand. âIâm not what youâre thinking. Iâm not your brother.â
Your lips parted, your hands trembling at your sides. A small gasp left youâhalf relief, half new terror.
âThen⌠then who are you, Taehyung?â Your voice cracked, your eyes burning. âIf not himâif not the man I called my fatherâthen who the hell are you?â
Taehyung shook his head helplessly, his own voice breaking. âI donât know.â He laughed bitterly, hollow. âI donât know, Yn. Thatâs the truth. Iâm as confused as fuck as you are. Because my mother swore to me I was his son, but the papers⌠the test says otherwise. I donât know who I really am. I donât know what the truth is anymore.â
Jungkook finally moved, stepping forward, his jaw tight, his eyes flickering between you and Taehyung like he was piecing a puzzle faster than both of you. His voice was low, dangerous, but steadyâcutting through the storm.
âSo all this timeâŚâ he muttered, âboth of you⌠lived in lies someone else fed you.â
You looked at Jungkook, your chest heaving, your world tilting again under this revelation.
Taehyungâs jaw clenched, his eyes glassy but voice steady enough to cut.
âThat night⌠your mom found out,â he said, staring at the floor like the memory still burned holes into him. âShe found out what my mother told meâthat I was your fatherâs son. Which was a fucking lie, butâŚâ his throat tightened, ââŚshe was too kind. Too naĂŻve. She believed it.â
Your heart stopped, your knees almost buckling. âShe⌠believed it?â you whispered.
Taehyung nodded slowly, guilt dripping off him. âYeah. And she broke. On her own birthday⌠right before the party⌠she fought with my mom. Screamed at her. Said she couldnât forgive her. And with Mr. Kim not at homeââ he paused, glancing at you with haunted eyes, ââyour mom grabbed you. Took you with her. She left the mansion. She didnât want to stay another second.â
Your lips trembled, your chest heavy. âAnd then?â
Taehyung swallowed hard, his voice falling low. âAnd then the next thing I remember⌠is the call. A call to my mother. To Mr. Kim. That you two⌠got into an accident.â
Silence. The word accident hung between you like a blade.
Jungkookâs fists clenched at his sides, the muscle in his jaw ticking violently. âSo youâre telling me,â his voice was razor-sharp, âon her birthdayâthe night she diedâit all started because of your motherâs lies?â
Taehyung flinched, shame painting his face. âYes. If she hadnât said that⌠if my mom hadnâtââ
âDonât,â Jungkook cut him coldly, stepping forward, his voice rising with quiet fury. âDonât you dare put this on your motherâs tongue alone. This is bigger than that. Someone wanted Ynâs mom broken. Someone wanted this family destroyed.â
Your head shook violently, tears welling. âNo⌠no, noâstopââ
But Jungkook turned his gaze to you, steady, dark, and full of fire. âYn, donât you see? That accidentâit wasnât just an accident. It was a fucking chain reaction of lies. Lies planted right in your house. Lies that killed your mother and almost killed you too.â
Your breath hitched. The pounding in your skull was deafening, like drums beating from inside your head.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
And thenâflashes. Jagged pieces of a puzzle you didnât know existed.
The blur of a dark road.
The scream of tires.
The high-pitched cry of a childâyou.
And a laugh. A womanâs laugh. Sharp. Wicked. Echoing in your ears.
Your hands shot to your head as the pressure built like knives slicing through your skull. âAhhhââ you gasped, stumbling back, your vision swimming.
âYn!â Jungkook was at your side in an instant, catching you before you crumpled to the floor. His arms locked around you like steel, his voice low but shaking with urgency. âDonât push yourselfâdonât force it, angel. Donât. Youâll hurt yourselfââ
Your nails dug into his shirt as you trembled violently, your chest heaving for air. âI-I saw⌠I heardââ
âShh,â he hushed you firmly, pulling your head to his chest, one large hand cupping the back of your skull protectively. His heartbeat thundered against your ear, steady and grounding while your own pulse spiraled out of control. âDonât stress. Donât think about it now. Breathe with me, Yn. Just breathe.â
Taehyung and Sera froze in place, wide-eyed with worry. Taehyung took a step forward, his hand half-reaching, his voice cracking. âYnâŚâ
But Jungkookâs glare shot like fire over your trembling body, daring him to come closer. âStay back. She doesnât need more pressure right now.â
Seraâs lips pressed together, her knuckles white as she gripped her own wrist, helpless.
Meanwhile, you clutched your head tighter, the echo of that wicked laugh replaying in your mind like a curse. Tears spilled hot and fast down your cheeks, soaking Jungkookâs shirt as you choked out, âShe was there. A woman. Laughingâwhen I⌠when the carââ
Jungkookâs arms tightened around you until you were swallowed completely by his warmth, his jaw clenched so hard it ached. His voice dropped low, a promise and a threat all at once.
âWhoever the hell she wasâŚâ his eyes burned like fire over your shoulder, ââŚIâll find her. And Iâll make her regret ever breathing the same air as you.â
Your trembling grew worse, your breaths uneven, eyes rolling back as the pounding in your skull reached its peak. The fragments of memory blurred into a screeching halt of white noiseâthen nothing.
âYnâYn!â Jungkook shook you lightly, his voice sharp with panic. But your body went limp in his arms, head lolling against his chest.
His entire world dropped out from under him.
âFuckâno, no, no, noââ his arms tightened, cradling you like porcelain, his chest heaving as terror slammed into him. He glanced at Taehyung and Sera, his glare so venomous it silenced them instantly.
Without another word, he scooped you up bridal style, his jaw clenched, muscles rigid as he stormed toward the door.
âJungkookâwait, where are you taking her?â Taehyungâs voice shook as he followed a step, but Jungkook spun around, eyes blazing.
âDonât you dare follow me,â he snapped, his voice rough, unrecognizable, dripping with rage and fear. âThisâthis is exactly why I didnât want to bring her here. I knew it! I fucking knew something would happen the moment I stepped foot in this place with her!â
He held your unconscious form tighter, his chest vibrating with his ragged breathing as he turned away.
Taehyung froze, guilt flashing in his eyes, while Sera covered her mouth, too stunned to speak.
Jungkook stormed out into the hallway, muttering like a man fighting with his own demons, his jaw trembling with restrained fear as he looked down at your pale, unconscious face.
âThatâs why I didnât want this,â he whispered harshly, almost to himself, almost to you though you couldnât hear. His voice cracked with raw desperation. âI knew it, angel. I knew it would break you⌠and I fucking let it happen.â
His arms tightened around you like he could fuse you to him and keep you safe from the world. With every step, his fury burned hotterânot at you, never at youâbut at himself, Taehyung, the past, and whoever the hell that laughing woman was.
Jungkook didnât waste a second. He practically flew down the stairs, your limp body pressed protectively against his chest. His eyes were wide, wildâlike a man ready to kill anyone in his way.
âYnâstay with me, Please, just stay,â he whispered harshly against your hair, his lips trembling though his jaw was locked in fury.
Behind him, Taehyung and Sera stumbled after, panic-stricken.
âJungkook! Waitâat least let meââ Taehyung tried to reach him, but Jungkook snapped, voice breaking with rage.
âDonât touch her!â His roar cut through the silence of the night, sharp enough to make Sera flinch. âYouâve done enough! Justâdonât.â
The three of them burst outside, and within seconds Jungkook had you laid carefully in the back seat of his car, one hand still cradling your head like glass while the other fumbled with his keys. His breathing was so uneven it almost shook the car itself.
Taehyung yanked open the passenger door, sliding in. Sera scrambled into the back beside you, tears in her eyes as she tried to steady you.
Jungkook slammed the engine alive, tires screeching as he tore through the streets, every red light ignored. His knuckles were white on the wheel, his other hand constantly reaching back to touch your face, to make sure you were still warm, still breathing.
âDonât close your eyes too deep, Yn. Donât . Fuckâjust donât.â His voice cracked, softer when speaking to you but venom when he turned to Jin on speed dial.
âHyungâitâs an emergency. Iâm coming to your place now. She blacked out, sheâs not waking up, and if youâre not ready when I get there I swear to Godââ
He didnât finish, his voice breaking.
By the time they reached Jinâs private clinic, Jungkook had already jumped out before the car even stopped properly. He pulled you into his arms again, ignoring the way Taehyung reached out to help.
âDonât. Touch. Her,â Jungkook snarled through his teeth, every muscle screaming with tension.
Jin was already waiting at the door, his coat half on, eyes widening as he saw you unconscious in Jungkookâs arms.
âWhat happened?â Jin demanded.
âShe remembered somethingâsomething from that night,â Jungkookâs voice shook. âAnd thenâshe collapsed. Sheâs in pain, hyung. I knew this would fucking happen!â
âInside. Now!â Jin barked, pushing the door wide.
Jungkook strode in, laying you gently on the examination bed, his hand gripping yours so tightly his knuckles trembled. Taehyung and Sera followed in silence, both guilty and terrified, their presence like shadows in the room.
Jin quickly checked your pulse, your pupils, ordering equipment with a sharp voice. âSheâs stable for nowâbut her brainâs under severe stress. Whatever she tried to remember, it triggered suppressed trauma. We need scans and sedativesânow.â
Jungkook pressed his forehead to your hand, his eyes squeezed shut. For the first time in a long time, his voice was barely more than a broken whisper.
âI swear,⌠if I lose you, Iâll burn this whole fucking world down.â
The air was thick with panic. Machines beeped sharply, the sterile smell of antiseptic burning through the chaos. Jinâs hands moved fast, inserting an IV into your arm, muttering clinical terms under his breath.
âHer vitals are fluctuating,â he said, glancing at the monitor. âIf her brain keeps straining like thisââ
âFix it, hyung!â Jungkookâs shout cracked like thunder, his eyes blazing with helpless fury. He was pacing like a caged predator, raking his fingers through his hair, chest heaving. âDo something, please!â
âI am,â Jin snapped, then softer, âBut this isnât something I can just stitch up, Jungkook. This is her mind. Forcing these memories is like pushing her into fire. It could burn her alive from the inside.â
Sera, wringing her hands, whispered shakily, âIâI didnât know this would happenââ
âShut up!â Jungkook barked, whipping around with a glare so deadly that she went silent instantly.
Taehyung stepped forward, fists clenched. âShe came because she wanted answers. Donât you dareââ
âDonât you dare put yourself in this, Taehyung!â Jungkookâs roar shook the room. He jabbed a trembling finger at him. âIf anything happens to herâIâll hold you responsible before anyone else. You were supposed to protect her, werenât you? Where the fuck were you when she needed you most?â
Taehyungâs jaw locked, his throat bobbing. For once, he didnât fight back.
Meanwhile, Jin injected a mild sedative and adjusted your IV. Slowly, your twitching eased, your face softening as the storm inside you calmed. The monitorâs beeping steadied.
âSheâll rest now,â Jin said firmly. âBut Jungkookâthis isnât the end. If her memories are surfacing on their own, we need to prepare her carefully. Next time, it could be worse.â
Jungkook dropped into the chair beside you, grabbing your limp hand, pressing frantic kisses over your knuckles. His shoulders shook though his face stayed hidden. âI donât care what it takes. Just save her.â
Hours later, the world swam back slowly. You stirred under the soft white blanket, blinking against the dim light of Jinâs clinic room. Your throat was dry, your body heavy.
The first thing you saw was him. Jungkook, slumped forward in the chair beside you, head resting on his crossed arms on your bed, his fingers still entwined with yours.
â...Jungkook?â your voice was hoarse, barely a whisper.
His head snapped up instantly. Relief crashed across his features so violently that for a moment, he couldnât speakâhe just leaned in, cupping your face in both hands like you were made of fragile glass.
âYou okay? ,â his voice broke, breath ragged. âYou scared the living shit out of me.â His thumb brushed over your cheekbone, tracing the faint wetness there from old tears. âDonât everâeverâdo that again.â
You blinked, confusion fogging your mind. âWhat⌠happened?â
âYou blacked out. From the memories.â His voice was sharp, but trembling underneath. âI told you not to push yourself. I fucking told you.â
âIâI didnât mean toâŚâ your lips quivered. âIt just⌠came back. That laugh, the carââ
His eyes darkened instantly, his hands pressing firmer against your cheeks. âShh. Stop. Donât force it now.â He shook his head, almost desperately. âYouâll tell me when youâre ready. Iâll wait, Yn. I donât care how long it takes. Justâdonât carry it alone anymore.â
Tears welled again, but softer this time. His forehead pressed against yours, his breath mingling with yours as he whispered like a vow:
âIâm here. Even if the whole world fails youâI wonât.â
Taehyung stood frozen against the wall, fists clenched so tightly his knuckles were white. Every breath was heavy, burning his chest like acid. Watching you lying pale and still on that hospital bed ripped something raw inside him.
Jungkook was bent over you, whispering promises, his touch fierce but gentle, like you were the only thing holding him to earth.
Taehyungâs jaw tightened.
That shouldâve been me.
The words echoed in his skull like a curse. He was supposed to protect you. He swore it, long ago, when your motherâs bloodied hands clutched his and begged him with her last breath. He swore. And yetâhere you were, broken, trembling in another manâs arms.
Guilt tore at him, sharper than knives. Jungkookâs earlier words stabbed even deeper:
âYou were supposed to protect her. Where the fuck were you when she needed you most?â
His chest heaved. His throat burned. And still, he said nothingâbecause Jungkook was right. He failed.
And now, seeing you curled against Jungkookâhis Jungkook, who guarded you like you were his very soulâit left Taehyung hollow, hurting, and utterly powerless.
As your eyes fluttered open, Taehyungâs gaze snapped to you instantly, but you didnât see himâyou saw Jungkook.
The way Jungkook leaned in, trembling hands framing your face, begging you not to leave him. The way his forehead rested against yours like he was tethering himself to your heartbeat. The soft vow he whisperedâ
âIâm here. Even if the whole world fails youâI wonât.â
Something in Taehyung shattered.
His fists curled again at his sides, nails digging so hard crescents of blood threatened to rise. He bit the inside of his cheek, forcing himself to look away, to swallow the scream in his throat.
Because he knew. Deep down, heâd lost you long ago. Not to death, not to fateâbut to Jungkook.
And maybe⌠maybe that was his punishment for failing you when you needed him most.
The moment Jin closed the door behind him, signaling you needed rest, Jungkook turned on Taehyung like a predator finally unchained. He stepped in so close that Taehyung had no choice but to meet his gaze. His voice was low, lethal, each word sharpened like a blade.
âDo you think I fucking believe you?â
Taehyungâs jaw tightened, but he didnât move.
Jungkook leaned closer, his breath brushing his rivalâs ear. âI donât believe a word you said. Neither am I denying it. You know why? Because I donât fucking care. Whether youâre lying, whether youâre twisting shit, whether youâre confusedâI donât care.â
His eyes burned, dark and unrelenting. âBut donât you dareââ his voice dropped to a whisper that cut colder than steelâ âdonât you dare feed lies to her. Not her. Not when the only thing she needs is truth.â
Taehyungâs fists curled at his sides, his knuckles trembling. For a second, his mask crackedâthe guilt, the bitterness, the ache flashing in his eyes.
But Jungkook didnât give him the chance to speak. He straightened, his jaw set in iron. âIf you canât give her the truth, then shut the fuck up. Because I wonât let your poison touch her again.â
The hallway was thick with silence, Jin and Sera watching from the sidelines, frozen in the suffocating weight between the two men.
Taehyung swallowed, his throat tight, but he forced his voice steady. âAnd what if the truth isnât what you want to hear, Jungkook?â
Jungkookâs gaze didnât waver. He leaned in once more, his words final, merciless.
âThen Iâll burn through it until I find the real one. And Iâll destroy anyone who tries to bury itâincluding you.â
Taehyungâs chest rose and fell, voice rough but steady. âIâm saying the truth. This⌠this is all I know.â
For a long moment Jungkook just stared at himâthen, suddenly, a sharp, humorless chuckle slipped from his lips. He tilted his head, eyes glinting in the dim light of the hospital corridor.
âYeah⌠maybe it is.â His tone was mocking, dangerous. âMaybe thatâs the truth you chose to tell.â
Taehyung froze, his shoulders stiffening.
Jungkook stepped closer, forcing him to meet his piercing gaze. His voice dropped to a deadly whisper. âBut I can also see the truth youâre hiding.â
Taehyungâs eyes widened slightly, betraying the smallest flicker of panic. âWhatâŚ?â
Jungkookâs smirk faded, his jaw tightening. âDonât play dumb with me.â His voice cut sharp and low, each word dragged with controlled fury. âYou didnât tell her everything. Youâre holding back somethingâsomething bigger. And I swear to God, Taehyung⌠donât you dare lie to me. Iâll know.â
The silence stretched, heavy, suffocating. Taehyungâs fists clenched tighter, veins showing along his forearms as he struggled to hold his composure. His throat bobbed, but no words came.
Jungkook leaned in, his stare unblinking, merciless. âYouâre not the only one who can protect her. And if I find out youâre still keeping pieces of the truth from herâŚâ His voice turned colder, like ice cracking beneath weight. ââŚthen protecting her wonât save you from me.â
Jungkookâs gaze snapped from Taehyung to Sera. Cold. Sharp. Cutting right through her trembling facade.
âAnd youâŚâ His voice was low but lethal, the kind that didnât need to be raised to instill fear. ââŚyou better explain to me why you were at his place when we reached there.â
Sera stiffened instantly under his stare, her hands twisting nervously in front of her. Her throat bobbed as she swallowed hard, unable to look away from him.
Jungkookâs jaw flexed, his words dripping venom. âIâm not a fool who can believe your sweet little lies, Sera. So think carefully before you open your mouth.â
The silence was suffocating. Taehyung shifted beside her, about to speak, but Jungkook cut him off with a single glare that pinned him to the wall.
Seraâs lips trembled, her voice barely a whisper. âI-Itâs not⌠itâs not what you think, Jungkook. I⌠I was justââ
âJust what?â Jungkook snapped, stepping closer, his presence towering, suffocating. âJust sneaking around? Just keeping secrets? Or just conveniently showing up in the one place you shouldnât have been?â
Her knees felt weak, breath stuttering. The icy chill of his suspicion was far worse than anger. He wasnât just furiousâhe was dissecting her, seeing straight through the cracks she tried to hide behind.
Seraâs eyes darted to Taehyung, silently begging for help, but Jungkookâs voice lashed out again.
âDonât look at him. Look at me.â His tone was sharp as a blade. âYou owe me the truth, not him.â
The air was thick, suffocatingâSera trembling under Jungkookâs glare, Taehyungâs fists clenched at his sides.
Jungkook took a step closer, his voice dropping even lower, a deadly whisper meant only for her.
âOne last time, Sera. Tell me the truth before I tear it out of you.â
Seraâs lips parted, breath shakyâ
But before a word left her mouth, the sharp click of a door opening cut through the silence.
Jinâs voice carried from down the hall, calm but firm.
âJungkook. In my cabin. Now.â
Jungkookâs head turned slowly, irritation flickering across his face at the interruption. His jaw tightened, chest rising and falling with restrained fury. He spared one last cold glance at Seraâlong enough to make her shiver as if sheâd been sentenced.
Then, without another word, he pivoted and strode toward Jinâs cabin, his coat brushing past Taehyungâs arm hard enough to make him flinch.
Sera exhaled shakily, shoulders collapsing as if sheâd been holding her breath the whole time. Taehyung instantly moved closer to her, his voice low. âDonât worry⌠Iâll handle him.â
But Seraâs eyes stayed fixed on Jungkookâs retreating figure, dread curling in her stomach. She knew this wasnât over. Not even close.
Jin closed the file in front of him, his expression unusually grave. He leaned back in his chair, folding his hands.
âJungkook,â he said firmly, his doctorâs tone leaving no room for argument. âYou need to listen carefully. Itâs dangerous for her to pressure her mind like this. The scans⌠they show traces. The impact of those drugs didnât just fade with timeâthey left damage. Sheâs carrying scars you canât see.â
Jungkookâs jaw tightened. His knuckles pressed white against the armrest of the chair, every muscle in his body rigid.
âScars?â he repeated, voice low and sharp.
Jin nodded. âHer brain has been through years of chemical force. If she keeps trying to force her memories back, it could cause severe traumaâheadaches, blackouts like today, or worse. Her mind needs patience, not pressure. So make sure she doesnât push herself. And donât let anyone else push her, either.â
Jungkookâs eyes darkened, his voice rough with restrained rage.
âSo what youâre saying isâif she keeps going like this, it could kill her?â
Jinâs gaze didnât waver. âYes. Or leave her in a state sheâll never recover from. Jungkookâif you care about her, youâll protect her not just from the world, but from herself.â
The silence was heavy, suffocating. Jungkook stared down at his hands, fists curling tight, nails digging into his skin. His chest heaved once, twiceâlike a man barely keeping control.
Finally, he looked up, eyes burning with promise.
âIâll protect her. From everyone. From everything.â His voice dropped to a growl. âEven if I have to chain her to me to stop her from hurting herself.â
Jin sighed softly, recognizing the dangerous determination in his friendâs voice but knowing there was no point arguing. âJust remember⌠love and protection arenât the same as control. Be careful not to confuse the two.â
Jungkookâs fists slammed down on the desk, making the pen holder rattle. His voice came out harsher than he intended, edged with frustration.
âDonât drag the word love here, hyung. I told you beforeâI donât love her. Why canât you just understand that?â
His chest was rising and falling rapidly, like he was fighting to convince himself more than Jin. His gaze flickered away, jaw clenched so hard it hurt.
Jin didnât flinch. He just watched him, calm in the storm of Jungkookâs denial.
âIf it isnât love,â he said quietly, âthen why does her pain break you more than your own? Why do you look at her as if the world could burn but sheâs the only thing youâd save?â
Jungkookâs throat bobbed, his eyes darkening with something he couldnât name. He turned away, running a hand through his hair, muscles tight with suppressed turmoil.
âI just⌠I canât afford love,â he muttered under his breath, more to himself than to Jin. âNot in my world. Not with her.â
Jinâs voice softened, almost sympathetic.
âItâs not about whether you can afford it, Jungkook. Itâs already there. Whether you admit it or not.â
Jungkookâs silence was deafeningâhis denial cracking under the weight of truth he refused to face.
The black car rolled into the driveway. The silence inside had been suffocatingâSera fidgeting in the backseat, Jungkook gripping the steering wheel too tight, and you leaning into him weakly, exhaustion dragging your body down.
As soon as you stepped into the mansion, Mrs. Jeon appeared, her heels clicking against the marble, eyes widening when she saw you limping, Jungkookâs arm firm around your waist, Sera steadying your other side.
âOh my dearâwhat happened?â she gasped, rushing forward, her hands hovering near you as if afraid to touch and break you. âYn, are you okay?â
You forced a faint smile, shaking your head lightly.
âYes, Mrs. Jeon. Iâm okay⌠just tired.â
But she didnât look convincedâher brows knitted, her gaze flicking from your pale face to the tight line of Jungkookâs jaw.
âTired?â she repeated, her voice trembling. âYouâre limping, child. You can barely standâdonât lie to me.â Her hand finally cupped your cheek gently, the concern in her eyes startlingly genuine.
Jungkook, expression unreadable, interjected firmly, âSheâs fine. She just needs rest. Iâll take her upstairs.â His tone left no room for further questions, though Mrs. Jeonâs worried eyes lingered.
Sera, standing slightly behind, swallowed nervously. The guilt in her face wasnât hidden well, and Mrs. Jeonâs sharp gaze flicked to her, suspicion flickering for a split second before returning to you.
âRest, yes,â Mrs. Jeon murmured, touching your hand once more before stepping back. âBut, Jungkook, donât brush this off. Something happened. I can see it in both your faces.â
For a moment, the hall was heavy with tensionâMrs. Jeonâs worry, Jungkookâs stonewalling silence, Seraâs unease, and your fragile state caught in between.
Finally, Jungkook guided you upstairs, his arm tightening protectively as he muttered low enough for only you to hear, âIgnore her. You need sleep.â
But as you glanced back, you saw Mrs. Jeon still standing there, her lips pressed in a thin worried line, her eyes shadowed with something you couldnât nameâworry, yes, but⌠maybe fear, too.
The moment Jungkook disappeared upstairs with you leaning into him, the echo of their footsteps fading, Mrs. Jeon turned sharply to Sera. Her voice, low but edged with urgency, cut through the heavy silence.
âSera. What exactly happened?â
Sera stiffened, eyes darting away, fingers tangling together nervously.
âM-momâŚâ she whispered, her throat dry. âItâs complicated. I canât tell you.â
Mrs. Jeon stepped closer, her gaze pressing into her daughterâs. âComplicated? She came home limping, pale as a ghost, and your brother looked like he was carrying the weight of the world. Donât give me vague answersâwhat happened to Yn?â
Sera bit her lip hard, looking down at the marble floor. âMom⌠if you want to know, ask oppa. If he wants to tell you, heâll. But I canât say anything⌠itâs not my place.â
Her voice cracked at the end, guilt heavy in her tone. âI donât know if she wants anyone to know⌠so please donât force me.â
Mrs. Jeon studied her carefullyâher daughterâs clenched fists, the way her eyes shone with unease. It wasnât just secrecy; it was fear.
Finally, Mrs. Jeon exhaled sharply, lips pressing thin. âFine. I wonât force you. But SeraâŚâ her voice softened, though the edge of worry never left, ââŚyou better pray this doesnât break her. Or your brother.â
Sera swallowed hard, nodding weakly. She wanted to speak, to spill everything, but the weight of Jungkookâs cold warning and your fragile state chained her silence.
And Mrs. Jeon, standing in the quiet hall, clenched her hands. She had lived long enough to knowâwhen everyone is hiding the truth, itâs always worse than she imagines.
Jungkook helped you into the room, one arm wrapped firmly around your waist, the other steadying you when your legs wobbled. He didnât say a word until he settled you down gently on the bed, adjusting the pillows behind your back as if you were made of glass.
He crouched down in front of you, his dark eyes locking onto yours with a force that made you shrink into the sheets.
âListen to me.â His voice was low, hard, almost scolding. âDonât stress over anything. Donât pressure your brain. Donâtââ his jaw tightened, âdonât dig into the past anymore.â
Your throat worked, guilt swirling inside you. âBut Jungkook, Iââ
His hand shot up, not harsh, but enough to silence you. âNo. I mean it. Hyung was clear, and I saw what happened when you tried to remember.â His voice cracked just slightly, his fists clenching on his knees. âYou blacked out in my arms⌠Do you have any idea how fucking terrified I was?â
The way his voice trembled at the end made your chest ache. You reached out, weakly tugging at his sleeve. âI just want to know who I amâŚâ
For a moment his eyes softened, but just as quickly the walls slammed back into place. He gently pried your hand off, setting it back on the blanket.
âAnd I just want you alive.â
The room went silent after that. The weight of his words hung heavy, pressing against you harder than any memory could.
Jungkook stood, tucking the blanket around you with quiet precision, then leaned downâso close you could feel the brush of his breath on your forehead. But instead of the tenderness you craved, his words were clipped, commanding.
âRest. Thatâs an order.â
And then he stepped back, his broad shoulders stiff as if he were holding back more than exhaustion.
Jungkook came downstairs after making sure you were asleep, his expression unreadable but his jaw tight, fists flexing as if still wound up.
Mrs. Jeon rose from the sofa the instant she saw him. âJungkook-ah⌠what happened to her? Why was she limping, why did she look so pale? Tell me.â Her voice was lined with both fear and desperation.
He stopped at the bottom of the stairs, eyes dark, his tone flat. âWhatever it is, you donât need to know.â
She blinked, stunned at the iciness in her sonâs voice. âJungkookâŚâ she whispered, stepping closer.
His gaze hardened, and though he wasnât shouting, the steel in his words cut sharper than any yell. âJust remember thisâshe wonât be hurt. By any chance, at any cost.â
Mrs. Jeon flinched at the weight behind the promise. It wasnât just protectiveâit was a vow, the kind of vow her son never made lightly.
For a moment, silence stretched between them, thick with unspoken questions. Mrs. Jeon wanted to push, to demand answers, but the look in his eyesâdark, guarded, brimming with something dangerously close to furyâmade her stop.
Instead, she swallowed hard and nodded. âThen⌠at least take care of yourself too, Jungkook.â
But he was already turning away, loosening his tie with rough fingers, as if the conversation had ended the moment he gave his word.
Evening shadows stretched across the Jeon mansion when Maria arrived with Jimin. The moment she heard you werenât well, she didnât even bother with greetingsâher footsteps rushed straight upstairs.
She pushed the door open without knocking and froze for a heartbeat.
You were sitting on the window ledge, knees pulled close, staring out at the falling dusk as if the world outside could give you answers. Your eyes were empty, face pale, body so still it almost looked like youâd turned to glass.
âYNâŚâ Mariaâs voice cracked, and before you could react, she crossed the room and threw her arms around you.
You flinched at the sudden contactâyour whole body tensingâbut then, as her familiar warmth seeped in, you slowly exhaled and allowed yourself to relax into her embrace.
Mariaâs hand rubbed your back, trembling. âYou scared me⌠You donât know how much you scared me. I thoughtââ her words broke, and she hugged you tighter.
Your lips parted, voice small. âI didnât mean to⌠I justââ
âShh.â She cupped your face gently, pulling back enough to look into your eyes. âDonât say anything. Just⌠donât ever do this alone again. Iâm here, okay? Iâll always be here.â
You swallowed hard, eyes stinging, guilt and comfort clashing in your chest.
Behind her, Jimin lingered at the doorway. He didnât step in right awayâhis eyes were fixed on you, protective and pained, like he wanted to pull you into safety himself but knew Maria was what you needed first.
The silence stretched, only broken by Mariaâs soft breathing against your shoulder. For the first time that day, you felt the ache in your chest loosen just a little.
The living room was unusually quiet for the Jeon mansion. The air felt thick, heavy, as if every wall could sense the weight of what was left unsaid. You sat on the couch with Maria beside you, her arm looped around yours protectively, while Sera sat across with a face unreadable. Jimin leaned forward, elbows on his knees, eyes never leaving you. And then there was Jungkookâback straight, arms crossed, jaw set like stone.
Maria broke the silence first, her tone sharp but shaking.
âYN, I know you want answers. I know you think if you push hard enough youâll remember everything. But itâs not worth breaking yourself over. You nearly collapsed todayââ her voice cracked, but she steadied it, ââI canât let you go through that again.â
You opened your mouth, but Jungkookâs voice cut in, deeper, firmer.
âSheâs right.â His eyes locked on you, unreadable, but burning. âI told you beforeâdonât pressure your mind. Youâre not ready. Forcing yourself will only tear you apart.â
Your brows furrowed, frustration bubbling. âBut if I donât try⌠how will I ever know the truth?â
âYouâll know when itâs time,â Jungkook snapped, a hint of desperation beneath the hardness in his voice. âNot now. Not like this.â
Maria squeezed your hand. âListen to him, YN. Please. I canât stand watching you hurt yourself like this.â
Jimin finally spoke, his voice quieter but no less serious. âTheyâre not wrong. Youâve been through enough. What you need right now isnât to dig deeper into the pastâitâs to heal. Youâre⌠too important to all of us.â His eyes softened, then shifted to Jungkook, narrowing slightly as if daring him to disagree.
Sera finally said something, her tone calm but careful. âThey just want to protect you, YN. We all do. Maybe⌠maybe for now, you should listen.â
You sat there in the middle of them all, feeling their voices press against your chest. Anger, desperation, love, fearâthey all blurred together until you didnât know what to feel anymore.
The living room was still, every word already said circling in the silence like ghosts. Mariaâs hand clutched yours, Jungkookâs stare burned into you, Jiminâs quiet warning still lingered, and Seraâs calm voice sat heavy in the air.
And suddenly, you couldnât breathe.
Your chest heaved as you looked around at all of them, all these faces telling you what you should and should not do. Your fingers shook in Mariaâs grip before you finally ripped your hand away.
âStop it!â Your voice cracked through the silence, sharp and raw. Everyone froze.
âIâm soâfuckingâtired of this,â you spat, your eyes glistening. âAll of you treat me like Iâm⌠some fragile thing that will shatter if I even blink wrong. Like I donât belong to myself anymore!â
âYNââ Jungkook started, but you cut him off, the dam breaking.
âNo, Jungkook! You donât get it. None of you do! Iâve been living in this fog, this empty hole inside my head, and all I wantââ your voice wavered but didnât stop, ââall I want is to know What happened to me. Why I donât remember my own motherâs face without feeling like my head is splitting open.â
Tears burned your cheeks, but your voice only grew louder. âAnd every time I try, every time I think Iâm closeâyouâre all there, pulling me back, telling me to stop. Like youâd rather I stay broken because itâs easier for you!â
Mariaâs lip trembled, but Jungkookâs jaw clenched, his eyes dark and storming.
âYou think this is easy for us?â he ground out, his voice low but trembling with restraint.
âYes!â you shot back, standing now, chest heaving. âBecause you get to decide for me. You get to tell me when to stop, when to breathe, when to remember, when to forgetâwhile Iâm stuck living half a life!â
For a moment, no one spoke. The room pulsed with your ragged breathing and the sting of your words.
Maria looked like she might cry, Jimin stared at you with a pain that mirrored your own, and Sera stayed silent, biting her lip. Jungkookâhe just stared at you, fists clenched so tightly his knuckles turned white, his throat working like he was swallowing everything he wanted to say.
Your chest was heaving, words still burning in the air when Jungkook finally moved. His chair scraped back sharply against the floor, his fists slamming the armrest as he stood.
âYou think itâs easy for me?!â His voice boomed, sharp enough to make Maria flinch and Seraâs eyes widen. His glare locked onto you like fire.
âYou think I enjoy watching you cry yourself to sleep every night? You think I donât hear the way you choke on your nightmares, or see the way your hands shake when you try to remember?!â His voice cracked, louder, rougher. âDo you have any idea what it does to me, YN, knowing I canât fix it?â
You blinked at him, stunned, but he didnât stopâhe couldnât.
âIâm trying to hold you together while youâre tearing yourself apart! And you call that easy?â He laughed bitterly, running a hand through his hair before pointing at you with trembling fingers. âYou think I like telling you to stop, to breathe? No. I do it because Iâd rather have you alive and hating me than watching you kill yourself trying to remember the past.â
Your throat went dry, his words slicing through you.
âAnd donâtââ he stepped closer, his voice dropping but heavy with fury, âdonât you dare say I decide for you. Because every damn thing Iâve doneâevery choice Iâve madeâwas to keep you breathing, not to cage you.â
His chest rose and fell violently, eyes burning with something wildâanger, pain, desperation all tangled into one.
The silence was suffocating. Mariaâs hand covered her mouth, Jimin stared at Jungkook like heâd never seen him this raw, and Sera lowered her gaze, biting her lip.
You stood frozen, heart hammering, your tears mixing with the sting of his words. He was right thereâfurious, shakingâand yet beneath it, you could see it: the cracks, the fear, the love he kept denying even to himself.
The silence after Jungkookâs outburst weighed heavy on the room, everyoneâs faces pale, stunned into stillness. Your throat burned with words you couldnât force out, your eyes blurring with hot tears.
You pushed back your chair abruptly, the scrape piercing the tension. Without a glance at anyoneânot even at Jungkook, who stood there still breathing hardâyou turned on your heel.
âYNââ Maria called softly, but you didnât stop. Your steps were fast, almost stumbling, as you climbed the stairs.
Behind you, you could feel Jungkookâs gaze burning into your back, but you didnât dare look. Because if you did, you knew your legs would give out.
Once inside your room, you shut the door and twisted the lock with shaking fingers. The click echoed like a final wall between you and the world outside.
Your chest collapsed as you slid down the door, hugging your knees tight. For the first time since the accident, since the unanswered questions, you felt utterly aloneâdespite the house full of people.
Downstairs, Jungkook didnât move. His fists remained clenched at his sides, jaw tight, eyes trained on the staircase you had just climbed. Everyone else shifted nervously, but no one spoke.
He had shouted, he had bared his fear in angerâand now, he realized, he had pushed you further away.
His chest ached like fire.
The air was still heavy when Jungkook finally straightened, his voice low but firm.
âMaria, Jimin⌠you two can go home.â
Maria shot up from her seat instantly. âWhat? No. Iâm not leaving her like this, Jungkook. She needs meââ
âI said Iâll handle it,â Jungkook cut her off, tone brooking no argument. His eyes, sharp and unreadable, pinned her in place. âYouâll only make it worse if you stay.â
Mariaâs lips parted, a protest on the tip of her tongue, but Jungkookâs stanceâunyielding, commandingâmade her falter. His jaw was tight, his hands curled into fists at his sides, and something about him warned that he wouldnât back down.
âIâm not asking, Maria.â His voice dropped lower, dangerous. âGo.â
Her heart clenched painfully. She glanced toward the staircase where your room was, torn between wanting to fight for you and realizing Jungkook was immovable. Finally, with trembling hands, she picked up her bag. âFine. But if anything happens to herââ
âIt wonât.â His words came out like a promise, edged with steel.
Jimin followed her quietly, but just as he reached the door, he paused and turned back. His eyes held Jungkookâs, steady and calm in contrast to the storm raging in him.
âDonât go so far protecting her,â Jimin said, voice deep and serious, âthat youâre the one who ends up hurting her.â
The words hit like a strike, freezing Jungkook mid-breath.
Jimin gave him a last look, then left with Maria, the door closing softly behind them.
Silence swallowed the house again.
And Jungkook stood there, staring at nothing, his chest tight with Jiminâs warning echoing in his mindâbecause he knew he already had.
The house was too quiet. Every tick of the clock felt like it was drilling into Jungkookâs head. Hours passed, the sting of Jiminâs words still burning in his chest. Finally, when he couldnât bear it anymore, he found himself standing outside your locked door.
He lifted his hand to knock, but it hovered midair for too long before he finally let it drop against the wood.
âYNâŚâ His voice was low, softer than it had been all day. âOpen the door.â
Silence.
He leaned his forehead against the door, eyes closing. âI know youâre awake. I can hear you moving.â His tone faltered, caught between command and plea. âYou donât have to say anything. Just⌠let me in.â
Still nothing.
He exhaled sharply, his fist clenching against the wood. For a moment, frustration flared in his chestâbut then it cracked, giving way to something rawer. His voice lowered, almost breaking.
âIâm⌠not good at this,â he admitted, barely audible. âI donât know how to protect you without breaking you. And I donât know how to stop myself, because every time youâre hurting, Iââ He swallowed, cutting himself off before the words slipped too far.
A heavy silence pressed back at him, and it tore him in two.
He let his palm rest flat against the door. âI just need you safe. Even if you hate me for it.â
For a long moment, the only sound was his unsteady breathing. Then, softer still:
âPlease⌠just donât shut me out completely.â
He stayed there a while, head bowed, waitingâhopingâthough he didnât know if youâd answer or leave him with the weight of his own words.
Jungkook hesitated before twisting the handle, half-expecting resistance. But the lock clicked open too easily. The door creaked, and what he saw froze him in place.
You werenât in bedâyou were curled up on the cold floor by the door itself, your head resting against the wall. Your cheeks were still streaked with dried tears, your lashes wet, your eyes swollen even in sleep.
Something inside him cracked at the sight. His jaw clenched, but his gaze softened instantly, raw worry breaking through all the hardness heâd worn all day.
âYNâŚâ he whispered, crouching down. He reached out, brushing a strand of hair from your damp cheek with trembling fingers. You shifted slightly but didnât wake.
For a moment, he just knelt there, staring, guilt twisting in his chest. I did this. I pushed her too hard. I made her cry herself to sleep on the damn floor.
Carefully, he slid one arm under your knees, the other around your back, lifting you with ease. You stirred faintly against him, head dropping against his shoulder, but you didnât open your eyes.
Jungkook pressed his lips to your temple, almost without thinking. His voice was low, meant only for you.
âIâm sorry, ⌠Iâm so fucking sorry.â
He carried you to the bed, laying you down with a tenderness that contrasted the storm raging inside him. As he tucked the blanket over you, he lingered, crouching by the bedside, his fingers brushing over your hand.
His eyes burned, but he forced them shut.
âIâll protect you⌠even if it kills me. But Godâplease donât break like this again.â
He stayed there, watching you breathe, as if keeping vigil, unwilling to leave you alone in your sleep.
The Jeon mansion was quiet, the only sound the ticking of the old grandfather clock in the hall. Mrs. Jeon sat at the edge of the bed, worry written across her face, while Mr. Jeon loosened his tie with a long sigh.
âSheâs not bad for Jungkook,â Mrs. Jeon whispered finally. âIn fact⌠I think sheâs good for him. Sheâs strong, sheâs endured things most people canât even imagineâand she can stand beside him, shoulder to shoulder, not behind him.â
Mr. Jeon exhaled, rubbing his forehead as if the weight of his thoughts pressed too heavily. âI know. I see it too. Sheâs not weak, she could be the one person who wonât crumble in his shadow. ButâŚâ
Mrs. Jeon frowned. âBut what?â
He looked at her, eyes heavy. âBut whatâs the truth between them? Jungkook told us he loves her⌠yet, do you see it? Do you see that affection? That warmth? They live in separate rooms, for Godâs sake. Does that sound like love to you?â
Her lips parted, but no words came.
âAnd when I asked her directly if she loves him,â he continued, his voice softer, sadder, âshe didnât answer. Not yes, not no. Just silence. And that silence worries me more than anything. Because if she doesnâtâŚâ he paused, shoulders sagging, âI donât want to see my only son break.â
Mrs. Jeon lowered her gaze.
âHeâs never had a relationship before,â Mr. Jeon went on, tone heavy with both pride and fear. âSince he was young, he carried responsibilities too big for his shoulders. He grew up faster than he shouldâve, became the man Iâm proud ofâbut also the man who forgot what itâs like to be vulnerable. And now, suddenly, without warning, he marries. Without telling us. Without preparing himself. Do you understand what that means?â
Mrs. Jeonâs heart sank. âYou think heâll regret it?â
âNo,â Mr. Jeon whispered, shaking his head slowly. âI think⌠if she doesnât truly love him back, itâll break him in ways even I canât fix.â
Mrs. Jeonâs brows pulled together, her voice soft but firm. âYouâre wrong, you know.â
Mr. Jeon looked at her, startled.
âShe may not have answered you, but that doesnât mean she doesnât care. Sometimes silence says more than words,â she said, her hand gently covering his. âI see the way she looks at him when heâs not watchingâthe way she flinches at his pain, the way her shoulders drop the second he walks into the room. Thatâs not nothing.â
He wanted to argue, but she didnât give him the chance.
âAnd Jungkookââ she went on, her tone strengthening, ââyou say you donât see affection. But I see a man who holds her like sheâll disappear if he lets go. A man who never leaves her side, who softens only for her. Do you think thatâs not love? Or that it isnât growing into love, if it isnât already?â
Mr. Jeon clenched his jaw, conflicted.
âMaybe they rushed, maybe they donât know how to say it yet, maybe sheâs scared to admit it,â Mrs. Jeon whispered, squeezing his hand tighter. âBut love isnât always loud. Sometimes itâs in the silence, in the way they breathe easier together, in the way he protects her without asking why, and she trusts him without knowing the reason.â
Mr. Jeon sighed, his chest heavy. âBut if she never loves himâŚâ
âThen she will,â Mrs. Jeon interrupted, her eyes glistening with certainty. âFeelings grow. Sometimes stronger than anyone can expect. If she truly didnât care, she would have left. But she hasnât. Sheâs still here. And that means something. More than you think.â
Mr. Jeon leaned back against the headboard, her words sinking into him. The clock ticked louder in the silence, his doubt wrestling with her conviction.
Next morningâŚ
The dining table felt heavier than it should. Plates clinked quietly, spoons stirred, but not a word passed between anyone.
You sat stiffly, eyes fixed on your plate, mechanically chewing. Jungkook sat across from you, shoulders tense, his gaze flickering to you every few secondsâhoping, waitingâfor you to look at him, for some sign. But you didnât. Not once.
Mrs. Jeon tried to break the silence once or twiceââMore rice, YN?â âJungkook, eat slowly, sonââbut both of you answered in the bare minimum, and the silence swallowed everything again.
After finishing, you stood abruptly. âIâll be late for class,â you said flatly. No one missed how you grabbed your bag and keys without even glancing Jungkookâs way.
âIâll drop you,â Jungkook said, almost instinctively.
You shook your head sharply. âNo. I can go by myself.â
Before he could protest, you were already out the door.
The slam echoed through the mansion. Jungkook froze, chopsticks still in his hand, his chest tightening with guilt. He knew last nightâs words, his harshness, his overprotectivenessâthey had all pushed you further away.
Mrs. Jeon glanced at her son quietly, worry clouding her face. Jungkook dropped his chopsticks, rubbed his face with both hands, and muttered under his breath, âI messed it up⌠again.â
The college courtyard was buzzing as usual, but the moment you stepped in, the energy shifted. Eyes followed you, whispers sparked and spread like fire.
âLook at her walking like the queen.â
âDoesnât she have any shame? Or maybe sheâs too shameless.â
You caught fragments, a frown tugging at your lips. But you forced yourself to ignore, chin high, steps steady.
Behind you, Jungkook followed in his usual detached wayâhis tall frame making heads turn, but he didnât spare the gossips a single glance. He never did.
And then it happened.
From the crowd emerged that girlâthe one who lived for drama, the one who had always made it painfully obvious she liked Jungkook. She stopped right in front of you, arms folded, her smirk sharp as a blade.
âSo, YN,â she drawled, loud enough for the crowd to hear, âdonât you have anything to say?â
You raised a brow, irritated. âWhat?â
âOh, donât play dumb.â She tilted her head mockingly, eyes glittering with fake innocence. âEveryone already knows. So why donât you stop hiding it and just admit it?â
A pause. The crowd leaned in.
âAdmit what?â you asked flatly.
The girlâs smirk widened. She practically sang the words:
âThat youâre married.â
The courtyard froze.
A ripple of gasps, widened eyes, mutters breaking out everywhere.
You stood there, breath caught in your throat, pulse hammering. Jungkookâwho had just stepped closerâhalted mid-step, his expression hardening as though the ground had shifted beneath him.
Behind you, Maria and Taehyung arrived just in time, catching the tail end of it. Maria immediately stormed to your side.
âWhat do you mean?â Maria snapped, eyes flashing at the girl. âWhere did you hear something like that?â
But the girl only smirked wider, savoring the attention. âOh come on, donât act surprised. The whole campus knows. Guess secrets donât stay secrets for long, huh?â
Your stomach dropped. Your fingers went cold.
How the hell did they find out?
The question echoed in your mind, louder than the whispers surrounding you.
The courtyard was buzzing louder now, whispers turning into low roars. You were still frozen when suddenlyâ
That girl grabbed your wrist and yanked it up in the air for everyone to see.
âLook at this!â she practically shouted, her voice dripping with mockery. âSheâs literally wearing a wedding ring. And she expects us to believe sheâs not married?â
Your breath hitched as gasps rippled through the crowd. Dozens of eyes zeroed in on the ring gleaming under the sunlight, whispers turning venomous.
âTch,â the girl sneered, her face twisting in judgment. âYouâre too desperate to get married, huh? Couldnât even wait until graduation? At least other girls have some dignity.â
Her words stabbed like knives. The murmurs turned sharper.
âSeriously?â
âSo young and already throwing herself into marriage?â
âPathetic.â
You tried pulling your hand back, but her grip only tightened, humiliating you further.
Before you could speakâbefore Maria could lungeâ
A hand clamped down on the girlâs wrist.
Cold. Firm. Unmovable.
Everyone froze as Jungkook stood there, towering, his face unreadable but his eyes deadly sharp.
âLet. Go,â he said, his voice low, dangerous.
The girl faltered, her smirk faltering into a nervous twitch. âI-I was justââ
Jungkook leaned closer, voice slicing the air.
âYou think you have the right to shame her? To touch her?â
The courtyard went silent. No one dared to move.
He tugged your wrist free and pulled your hand down gently, his grip protective but careful, like he was shielding you from the world. His jaw was clenched so tight you could see the muscle ticking.
âNext time,â he said, his voice icy, âkeep your filthy hands to yourself. And your mouth too.â
The girl swallowed hard, suddenly pale. She stepped back, biting her lip but still trying to act brave under all the stares.
âBut⌠everyone deserves to know the truthââ
âTruth?â Jungkook cut in, his glare silencing her instantly. âThe only truth here is that sheâs my wife. And anyone who has a problem with that can come to me, not her.â
Gasps echoed again, but this time, the weight of his words shut most of them up.
Your chest tightened. His public defense left you both tremblingâhalf with humiliation, half with something you couldnât name.
The girlâs voice shook, but she forced out a laugh, eyes darting between you and Jungkook.
âYouâre⌠youâre joking, right? Thereâs no way this is true. No way youâd actually marry her.â
Jungkookâs jaw ticked, his eyes narrowing into something darker than fury. Slowly, deliberately, he slid his arm around your waist and pulled you flush against him. The boldness of it made your breath hitch, heat rushing to your cheeks.
He didnât care. His focus was on the crowd. On her.
âListen carefully,â Jungkook said, his voice steady, deep, cutting through the murmurs like a blade. âShe is my wife. Not a rumor. Not a joke. My. Wife.â
The word hung heavy, echoing in the stunned silence.
Gasps and whispers broke out, louder this time, but not mockingâshocked. Shaken.
Jungkookâs eyes flicked over the students circling you, his arm tightening around you like a shield. âYou want to whisper behind her back? Judge her? Shame her? Then grow a spine and face me instead.â
He stepped forward slightly, dragging you with him, his presence so suffocating the crowd instinctively stepped back.
âIf youâve got the guts,â Jungkook hissed, gaze locking back on the girl who started it, âthen dare to hurt her. Lay a single finger on her. Say one more word against her. And youâll face me.â
The girl froze, her smirk gone, replaced by a nervous gulp. âY-You canât be seriousââ
âDo I look like Iâm fucking joking?â Jungkook snapped, his voice a thunderclap.
The courtyard fell dead silent again. Not a whisper. Not a movement.
And then he did something no one expectedâhe tilted his head down, his lips brushing your temple in a firm, possessive kiss. The kind that screamed ownership, protection, and defiance all at once.
You froze, eyes wide, your heart slamming against your ribs. Around you, people gasped, the gossip dying in their throats.
Jungkook pulled back, eyes daring anyone to say another word. âRemember this,â he said coldly. âSheâs mine. And no oneânot one of youâgets to disrespect her.â
The girl stepped back, finally silenced, her face burning red with humiliation as Maria smirked from the side, clearly proud.
Jungkook didnât wait for the whispers to restart. His hand stayed firmly wrapped around your waist, pulling you through the stunned crowd. No one dared step in your way, their heads lowered, silence swallowing the courtyard where chaos had been a second ago.
You could feel itâthe burn of their stares, the weight of their shock. But more than that, you felt him. His grip never loosened. His arm was heavy, grounding, almost suffocating, but you didnât pull away.
Your pulse was still racing, your temple tingling where he had kissed you. A kiss that wasnât for you but for themâto shut the world up, to mark you as his. And yet⌠it left your chest tight, your thoughts messy.
The moment you stepped out of sight, the awkwardness settled thick between you and Jungkook. Neither of you spoke, both aware of the silence stretching thin. You wanted to ask him why he did that. You wanted to tell him how it made you feel. But your lips stayed sealed, afraid your voice would betray your confusion.
Still, his hand didnât leave you. Even when he didnât say a word, even when his jaw was tight with unreadable emotions, his hold on you stayed. Protective. Possessive. Unshakable.
On the other side of the courtyard, Taehyung stood frozen, his fists clenched so tight his knuckles turned white. He had seen it allâJungkook dragging you close, claiming you, silencing the world for you.
But what made something inside him crack was that kiss. That single touch to your temple.
He had sworn to protect you. He had promised himself he would be your shield since that night years ago⌠and yet, every time, he failed. He couldnât stop your pain. Couldnât save you from the accident. Couldnât stop the whispers today.
And then there was Jungkookâwho didnât miss a single chance. Who would throw himself into fire before letting you burn. Who, without hesitation, claimed you in front of everyone, daring the world itself to hurt you.
Taehyungâs throat went dry, a bitter ache clawing in his chest. He wanted to be the one shielding you like that. The one you leaned on. The one who silenced your fears.
Instead, he stood in the shadows, fists clenched, watching as another man did what he couldnât.
The empty classroom door shut behind you with a dull thud. The silence inside was suffocating, only the faint echo of footsteps and your ragged breaths filling the space.
The second Jungkook let go of you, you spun aroundâyour chest rising and falling with pent-up fury.
âWhy did you do that?!â your voice broke the silence, sharp, trembling with more than just anger. âI couldâve handled it. I wouldâve told them it was a rumor and made them shut up. But youââ you jabbed a finger at him, your hand shaking, ââyou had to come in between! You had to tell them!â
Jungkook stood there, towering, his expression unreadable. His hands shoved deep in his pockets, his jaw tight.
âThey were tearing you apart with their words,â he said lowly, voice calm but dangerous. âAnd you expect me to just stand there and watch?â
âI donât need you to fight my battles for me!â you snapped back, your voice cracking under the weight of your emotions. âYou donât get it, Jungkook. Now everyone knows. Do you understand what youâve done? You just made me a target for everyone out there!â
He finally snappedâhis voice rising, raw and fierce.
âThey were already targeting you! Donât act like you didnât hear those whispers. Do you think Iâll just let them touch you with their filthy words?â He stepped closer, eyes burning into yours. âI wonât. Not now. Not ever.â
Your heart pounded. His proximity, his intensity, the way his anger wasnât just rageâit was fear, desperation. But you didnât back down, tears brimming in your eyes.
âYou think protecting me means making decisions for me?â your voice cracked. âYou think claiming me like that makes it easier? Youâre not protecting me, Jungkookâyouâre chaining me. And Iâm suffocating.â
The words hung between you, heavy, sharp, unhealed wounds turned into weapons.
Jungkook stared at you, his chest heaving, his eyes dark with something you couldnât name. For a moment, he looked like he wanted to yell again. But then⌠his lips pressed into a thin line, his gaze dropping for the first time.
The silence was heavy, both your chests heaving from the storm of words. You were still glaring at him through tears when Jungkook suddenly stepped forward, his voice droppingânot softer, but steadier, carrying a weight that shook you.
âI know,â he said, eyes locked onto yours. âI know you can handle it. I know you can fight your own battlesâyouâve been doing it your whole damn life. Youâre too strong, Yn⌠maybe stronger than me.â
Your lips parted, stunned by the admission.
He exhaled shakily, his voice rough, almost breaking.
âBut I wonât let you do it alone. Not anymore.â He clenched his fists at his sides, jaw tight as though he was holding back everything he truly wanted to say. âYouâve been carrying yourself alone for too long. Bleeding, fighting, sufferingâand no one stood beside you.â His gaze hardened, fierce, desperate. âBut I will. Even if you hate me for it. Even if you push me away a thousand times, I wonât let you fight alone.â
The words slammed into you like a tidal wave. He wasnât just speaking with angerâhe was bleeding truth, every syllable raw and trembling from someplace deep inside him.
You blinked, tears spilling over, because it was easier to be angry at his control than to face the terrifying sincerity in his voice.
âWhyâŚâ your voice came out small, breaking. âWhy do you care so much?â
Jungkookâs throat bobbed, his eyes searching yours, but when his lips parted⌠no words came.
Only silence.
Only his ragged breathing.
Only the closeness between you, unbearable yet unshakable.
You stood there frozen, your chest still tight from his words when suddenly Jungkookâs tone shifted. He straightened a little, brushing a hand through his hair, covering the storm that had just slipped out of him.
âYou should be askingâŚâ his voice was quieter now, lower, âwho told them about us?â
The word hung heavy in the empty classroom. Us.
Your breath hitched. He couldâve said you. Couldâve kept it distant, detached like he always did. But he didnât. Heâd put himself in itâtied himself to you without hesitation.
Your heart betrayed you, skipping painfully. âUs?â you repeated, your voice barely a whisper, eyes flicking to his.
For a split second, something flickered in his gazeâsomething he didnât mean to show. Then he looked away, jaw flexing, as though he regretted slipping the word at all.
âYes, us.â he said firmly this time, leaning back against the desk like he hadnât just shaken your world. âSomeone out there wants this to spread. Wants people to whisper, to tear you apart. Thatâs what you should be worried about.â
But you werenât. Not about that.
All you could hear was the way heâd said us.
All you could feel was the warmth of it clinging to you like a mark you werenât ready to admit you wanted.
The silence between you and Jungkook was thick, every second dragging like hours, when the door creaked open.
Maria peeked in, her eyes darting between the two of you. âYn⌠are you okay?â she asked softly, concern lacing her voice.
You straightened instantly, masking the turmoil inside. âIâm fine,â you said quickly, too quickly. Without waiting for her reply, you grabbed your bag and brushed past them both, your footsteps echoing against the floor.
Maria watched you leave, her lips pressing into a thin line, then turned to Jungkook. For the first time all day, her expression softenedânot worried, but proud. She gave him a small, approving smile.
âYou did the right thing,â she said.
Jungkookâs jaw tightened, his gaze still fixed on the door youâd just left through. âI just did what I shouldâve done,â he muttered, voice low but steady.
Maria tilted her head, studying him for a moment longer, almost as if she could see through the shield he always tried to keep. Then she only nodded, quietly satisfied, before slipping out after you.
Left alone in the empty classroom, Jungkook let out a breath he didnât know heâd been holding. His words replayed in his head. Us.
You sat down stiffly in your seat, your bag sliding off your shoulder with a dull thud. Beside you, Jungkook dropped into the chair like it was nothing, his posture calm, collectedâas if the whole campus wasnât buzzing around you like bees.
But you heard it. Every single whisper.
âSee? I told you theyâd end up together.â
âWerenât they enemies before? Always fighting?â
âAnd nowâmarried? What a joke.â
âProbably forced.â
âOr maybe sheâs just desperateâŚâ
Your jaw clenched so hard it hurt. Their words curled under your skin like thorns. You dug your nails into your palm, fists tightening against the desk, fighting the urge to spin around and scream at them to shut the hell up.
Jungkook noticedâof course he noticed. The way your shoulders shook with restraint, the way your lips pressed into a thin line. Without a word, his hand slid under the desk, brushing lightly against your clenched fist. Not holding, not forcingâjust⌠there. A quiet anchor.
The whispers didnât stop. If anything, they grew sharper, more daring. Your throat burned with unspoken words, the weight of their judgment pressing down.
Beside you, Jungkookâs gaze snapped upâcold and sharp, slicing straight through the crowd. One by one, the voices faltered, silence rippling across the room like a warning. No one dared to meet his eyes.
Still, your hand stayed fisted, your chest heaving. You were holding yourself backâbarely.
The whispers didnât stopâthey multiplied. A girl giggled behind you, a boy muttered under his breath, and the words âdesperate,â âfake,â âforcedâ kept circling like knives.
Your fist tightened so hard your nails dug into your skin. You were ready to snapâwhen suddenly, Jungkook leaned forward, his voice slicing through the air.
âNot. A. Word.â
The classroom fell silent, every head turning his way. His tone wasnât loud, but it carriedâdanger wrapped in calm, authority that made spines straighten. He looked around the room slowly, his eyes narrowing.
âWhisper reckless things about her againâabout usâand I swear Iâll make sure you regret it.â His jaw tightened, every syllable controlled, cold. âIf youâve got guts to talk, then say it in front of me. Donât hide behind your pathetic gossip.â
The air turned heavy, the kind of silence that suffocated. No one dared to meet his eyes now. The girl who had started it all sank into her chair, her smirk gone.
Beside him, you stared at the desk, your chest rising and falling unevenly. The word us still echoed in your ears, louder than the silence that followed.
Jungkook leaned back in his chair casually, but his presence filled the whole room, daring anyone to speak. No one did.
The rest of the lecture dragged on in suffocating silence. No one dared to whisper again after Jungkookâs warning, but the tension remained like smoke that refused to clear.
You stared blankly at the board, pen unmoving in your hand. Words blurred into white noiseâyour mind wasnât here, not with the professor, not with the class. It was still stuck in the courtyard, in the ring clutched by that girlâs hand, in the echo of Jungkookâs cold voice claiming us.
Maria leaned closer, her hand gently squeezing your wrist under the desk. âDonât let them get in your head, Yn⌠youâre not alone,â she whispered softly. Her warmth felt like an anchor, but your heart still pounded.
Across you, Jungkook sat rigid, eyes fixed straight ahead but his fists clenched under the desk. The muscle in his jaw ticked, his shoulders tense as though he were still one word away from tearing into anyone who dared look at you wrong.
Jimin, sitting diagonally behind, noticed and leaned forward just enough to whisper to Jungkook, âBreathe, man. Donât explode hereâitâll only make it worse.â His tone was calm but firm, the only person who dared to check Jungkook right now. Jungkook didnât respond, but his knuckles loosened slightly on the desk, his chest rising deeper as if forcing himself to listen.
Meanwhile, Taehyung sat at the far end of the row, his eyes glued to you and Jungkook. Every small thing hit him like a bladeâthe way Jungkookâs presence alone silenced the class, the way Maria and Jimin were on your side, the way you didnât flinch when Jungkookâs hand brushed yours to calm you earlier.
He swallowed hard, guilt weighing on him like chains. If I had protected her then⌠if I hadnât failed, she wouldnât need him like this. But another voice whispered cruelly in his head: And yet, even in the small things, he does what you couldnât. Even in the small things, she lets him in where you canât.
For the first time, Taehyung wasnât just guilty. He was terrified of the consequencesâthe cracks already spreading from the truth he had revealed, the storm that was bound to come when everything else spilled out.
And in that classroom, surrounded by silence, four people sat in the middle of their own stormsâeach one burning differently.
The bell finally rang, releasing the suffocating air of the classroom. Students spilled out in groups, whispering in hushed voices but careful enough to avoid Jungkookâs sharp gaze.
You packed your things slowly, avoiding everyoneâs eyes. Maria reached out, âYn⌠letâs go together, hmm?â her voice careful, almost pleading.
But you shook your head, forcing a small, tired smile. âI⌠I want to be alone for a while.â
Jungkook, who had been standing near the door waiting for you, instantly frowned. âAlone? No. Not after today. You donât know whatââ
You cut him off gently, meeting his eyes. âPlease. Just⌠give me this, Jungkook.â
For a long moment he just stood there, jaw tight, fists curling as if fighting himself. His instinct screamed to follow, to not let you out of his sight. But the storm in your eyes stopped him. You werenât pushing him away in anger this timeâyou just needed space.
Finally, he exhaled sharply, stepping back. âFine,â he muttered, voice low and tight. âBut donât take too long. Call me if anything happens.â
Maria touched your shoulder lightly, worry flickering in her eyes. She didnât want to let you go either, but she could read your exhaustion. âcall me when you reach home,â she whispered.
You nodded once, clutching your bag, and walked past them both.
Jungkookâs eyes followed every step, his chest heavy. Maria glanced at him knowinglyâhe was restraining himself more than anyone realized. He wanted to stop you, but he knew you needed to breathe without everyone watching.
Minutes later, the sound of your car pulling away echoed in the nearly empty campus parking lot. Jungkook stood frozen for a moment, then turned his back sharply, raking a hand through his hair in frustration.
He hated letting you go. But more than that, he hated that he couldnât fix the storm inside you.
The cityâs buzz faded as you pulled up near the Han River, parking the car a little away from the crowd. The soft ripple of water glimmered under the late afternoon sun, and a gentle breeze kissed your face as you stepped out.
You closed your eyes and inhaled deeply. But instead of calming you, the air felt heavyâthick with all the chaos in your chest.
Your hands clenched into fists. You hated it. You hated all of it.
The whispers at college. The looks. The lies. The fragments of your past that came like knives to your head.
And most of allâyou hated him.
Jeon Jungkook.
Or at least, you told yourself you should.
The way he shielded you, claimed you, stood in front of everyone without hesitation. The way his presence burned like fire against your cold edges. It wasnât supposed to matter. You were used to being strongâused to bleeding silently, to fighting every battle alone because no one ever stayed long enough to fight beside you.
But he⌠he didnât let you.
He didnât let you fight alone. He didnât even let you breathe alone sometimes.
And that broke you in ways you didnât understand.
Your eyes stung as you whispered to the water, your voice barely audible against the breeze.
âWhy canât I hate you?â
The question wasnât meant for him, but for yourself. For the walls you had built all your life that were crumbling brick by brick under his relentless care.
You hugged yourself tightly, tears slipping despite your effort to swallow them down. Because it didnât feel right. No one had ever looked at you the way he did. No one had ever cared without asking for something in return. And now, instead of feeling safe, it scared you.
It scared you because you didnât know how to live with someone who refused to let you be alone in your pain.
Evening crept in slowly, the orange sky deepening into bruised purples. The Jeon mansion was unusually quiet, but Jungkook couldnât sit still. He paced the living room, his jaw tight, hands clenching and unclenching at his sides.
You still hadnât come home.
Every minute that passed pressed harder against his ribs, making it difficult to breathe. He had told himself earlier to respect your space, to give you timeâbut patience had never been his strength, not when it came to you.
Mrs. Jeon peeked from the kitchen, worry lacing her voice.
âJungkook, where is she? Itâs getting late.â
His throat bobbed as he swallowed hard, trying not to show the storm clawing inside him.
âShe said she wanted to be alone. IâŚâ He exhaled sharply, fingers dragging through his hair. ââŚI thought she just needed some time, butââ
He cut himself off, anger flickering in his dark eyesâanger at himself for letting you go, anger at you for disappearing, and anger at the world for being so cruel to you.
Taehyung, who hadn't gone to his home but come with him finally muttered,
âIf you know her even a little, you should know she wonât come back until sheâs completely drained herself.â
Jungkookâs head snapped toward him, eyes narrowing.
âAnd you think I should just wait? Sit here like a fucking fool while sheâs out thereââ
He stopped, chest heaving. For a second, silence crushed the room. Then he pulled out his phone with shaky hands.
âTen more minutes,â he muttered, half to himself. âIf sheâs not back by then, Iâll find her myself. I donât care if I have to turn this entire city upside downâIâll bring her back.â
His thumb hovered over your contact, but his hand trembled. He wanted to call, to demand where you were, but another part of him wanted to beg.
Because not knowing where you wereâit was killing him.
The evening air at Han River grew heavier, colder, as you sat staring blankly at the water. The world looked blurredâlike the edges of reality were slipping away. You had come here to breathe, to calm the storm inside you. But insteadâŚ
You forced yourself back into your past.
Remember. You clenched your fists so tightly your nails dug into your palms. You have to remember. You canât just live in fragments forever.
Faces⌠voices⌠screams. The pressure in your skull began to build, throbbing like a drum. Your breath grew sharp, uneven. And thenâyour chest clenched as a voice from the deepest corner of your memory ripped through:
M-Mama⌠please⌠wake upâŚ
Your heart stopped. Your hands shook violently as you stumbled back to your car, tears spilling hot and unstoppable. You gripped the steering wheel, but your vision swam. Still, you turned the key, slammed the pedal.
The car roared forward.
You sped through the streets blindly, every corner of your mind unraveling, the voices screaming louderâaccusing, haunting, begging. Your breath hitched, your body trembling violently. The speedometer climbed.
You knew you were scared. You always hated driving fast. But right now, fear didnât matter. You just wanted to escape the memories clawing at you.
But thenâ
Your vision flickered black.
For a heartbeat, you closed your eyesâyour chest constricting as the memory replayed of your motherâs body, her stillness.
When you snapped your eyes open againâheadlights blinded you. A car was rushing head-on into yours.
Your scream tore from your throat as you jerked the wheel, tires screeching against the asphalt. The car spun, swerved hard, your body thrown against the seat belt. Finallyâwith a loud, aching screechâyou managed to drag the car to the side of the road.
You stumbled out, legs buckling under you. The night air hit your face like a slap. But it wasnât enough.
You bent over and threw up violently onto the pavement. Tears streamed down as your body convulsed, every nerve trembling. Your head pounded with unbearable pain, your breaths coming out in desperate, uneven gasps.
You had pushed yourself too far. Too much.
Wiping your mouth with a shaking hand, you dragged yourself back into the car. This time, your grip on the steering wheel was weak, your speed cautious. The storm inside you hadnât calmedâit had drained you until nothing was left but pain.
When the Jeon mansion finally came into view, relief and dread both hit you. Somehow, you managed to park, though your hands trembled so badly you nearly missed the brake.
You pushed open the door and stepped out. Your knees almost gave way. Every step to the entrance was unsteady, stumbling, your entire body trembling like a fragile leaf in the wind.
Inside, Jungkook had been pacing like a caged predator, checking his phone every second, staring at the door as though sheer willpower could drag you back.
The moment the door opened and you appearedâhis entire world stopped.
â...Yn?â His voice broke.
His eyes widened, shock flooding his expression as he took in your stateâyour trembling legs, your pale skin, your swollen tear-streaked face. And then his heart plummeted when he noticed your hands shaking uncontrollably, the uneven breaths tearing through your chest.
You barely looked at him as you stumbled another step.
âYnâ!â
In an instant, Jungkook was there, catching you before you could fall. His arms wrapped around you firmly, his chest tightening as he felt how violently you were shaking. His heartbeat roared in his ears, equal parts terror and fury.
âWhat the fuck happened to you?!â His voice cracked, equal parts worry and rage. âWhere the hell were you?! Why the hell did you do this to yourself?!â
You tried to speak but only a sob came out, your body going limp against him.
And in that moment, as his hold on you tightened, Jungkook realizedâhe had never been so scared in his life.
Your knees gave out completely, and before you could whisper even a single word, the world went black.
âYnâ?! YN!!â Jungkookâs voice cracked, filled with horror as your body went limp in his arms.
For one terrifying second, his chest seizedâbecause you werenât moving. You werenât responding. His heart felt like it was being ripped apart.
âNO, no, noâfuck, donât close your eyes.â His hands shook as he adjusted his grip, clutching you tightly against him. He could feel how frighteningly cold your skin was, how uneven your shallow breaths came. Panic surged through him like fire.
Without a second thought, Jungkook scooped you up bridal style and bolted up the stairs, his footsteps echoing like thunder through the Jeon mansion.
Mrs. Jeon and Sera, who had been in the living room, rushed out at the commotion. The moment their eyes landed on you unconscious in Jungkookâs arms, both women gaspedâSera covering her mouth in shock, Mrs. Jeon paling instantly.
âWhat happened to her?!â Mrs. Jeon cried, running behind Jungkook as he stormed up the stairs.
âShe faintedâsheâs notâfuckâsheâs not waking up, Mom!!â Jungkook snapped, his voice breaking, because he couldnât bear to say what if.
He kicked open his bedroom door and gentlyâyet tremblingâlaid you down on his bed, brushing the strands of hair sticking to your damp, tear-streaked face. His breaths came uneven, his entire body shaking with fear.
âJin-hyung! Hurry up, please!â His voice cracked again as he grabbed his phone with one hand, dialing Jin in a frenzy, the other hand never leaving your cold fingers.
Within 15 minutes, footsteps echoedâJin arrived in a rush, medical kit in hand. He froze for a moment seeing you unconscious, Jungkook kneeling beside you with tears welling in his eyes, his jaw clenched so hard it looked like he might shatter it.
âJungkook, move asideâI need space to check her.â
âNoââ Jungkook growled low, gripping your hand tighter. His voice was raw. âDonât you dare tell me to let go of her hand. IâI canât.â His gaze flicked to Jin, desperate, pleading. âJust⌠just save her, hyung. Please.â
Mrs. Jeon entered, covering her mouth as tears brimmed in her eyes. Sera stood frozen at the door, her heart pounding at the sight of her strong, untouchable cousin now completely broken, his whole soul hanging on your fragile body breathing on that bed.
Jin quickly placed his stethoscope on your chest, his brows furrowed deeper with every second. He checked your pulseâtoo fast. Your skinâburning hot and clammy at the same time. You trembled violently even in unconsciousness, your body fighting against itself.
âDamn it,â Jin muttered, immediately prepping an injection. He carefully slid it into your arm, pushing the medicine in while Jungkook knelt at your side, holding your cold hand against his forehead as if by sheer force he could keep you tethered to him.
After stabilizing you a little, Jin finally exhaled and turned to Jungkook, his face grim.
âShe has a dangerously high fever. Her pulse rate is unstable, and the tremors⌠Jungkook, sheâs exhaustedâmentally and physically. I told you this before.â
Jungkookâs eyes snapped up to him, wide and desperate. âWhat happened to her? Why is she like this?â
Jin closed the kit with a heavy sigh.
âSheâs pushing herself too hard. Forcing her brain, digging into her past, drowning herself in stress. You can see it in herâher body canât take it anymore, Jungkook. This collapse was inevitable if she kept going like this.â
Jungkookâs throat tightened. His grip on your hand turned white-knuckled. His voice was low, trembling, but full of guilt.
âI told her not to⌠I told her not to stress. Not to hurt herself like thisâŚâ
Jinâs gaze softened, but his tone stayed firm.
âAnd yet, she did. Because thatâs who she isâstubborn, unrelenting. But Jungkook, listen to meâif this continues, it wonât just be fainting spells or fever. Sheâs risking something far worse. Youâve got to make sure she stops pushing herself like this.â
He stood and placed a hand on Jungkookâs shoulder.
âIâll give you her medicines. Make sure she takes them, on time. Keep her hydrated, donât let her strain herself, and for Godâs sake, donât let her fight this battle alone anymore.â
Jungkookâs jaw clenched, his eyes dark as he looked at your pale, trembling form. His thumb brushed over your knuckles gently, his voice barely above a whisper.
âI wonât. Not anymore. Even if she hates me for it⌠I wonât let her break herself like this.â
Jin nodded, quietly packing his things, though his heart twisted at the sightâJungkook, the mafia leader, the untouchable man who feared no blood or war, now breaking apart over a fragile girl burning up in fever.
To be continued...







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